S1: E5 - Absolution

[0] I'm John Walsack, host of the new podcast, Missing in Arizona.

[1] And I'm Robert Fisher, one of the most wanted men in the world.

[2] We cloned his voice using AI.

[3] In 2001, police say I killed my family and rigged my house to explode.

[4] Before escaping into the wilderness.

[5] Police believe he is alive and hiding somewhere.

[6] Join me. I'm going down in the cave.

[7] As I track down clues.

[8] I'm going to call the police and have you removed.

[9] Hunting.

[10] One of the most dangerous fugitives in the world.

[11] Robert Fisher.

[12] Do you recognize my voice?

[13] Listen to missing in Arizona every Wednesday.

[14] on the IHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your favorite shows.

[15] The podium is back with fresh angles and deep dives into Olympic and Paralympic stories you know, and those you'll be hard -pressed to forget.

[16] I did something in 88 that hasn't been beaten.

[17] Oh, gosh, the U .S. Olympic trials is the hardest and most competitive meat in the world.

[18] We are athletes who are going out there, smashing into each other, full force.

[19] Listen to the podium on the IHeart app or your favorite podcast, weekly and every day during the Games to hear the Olympics like you've never quite heard them before.

[20] In 2020, in a small California mountain town, five women disappeared.

[21] I found out what happened to all of them, except one, a woman known as Dia, whose estate is worth millions of dollars.

[22] I'm Lucy Sheriff.

[23] Over the past four years, I've spoken with Dia's family and friends, and I've discovered that everyone has a different version of events.

[24] Hear the story on Where's Deer?

[25] Listen on the IHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to podcasts.

[26] This podcast contains discussions of sexual activity that may be disturbing for some listeners.

[27] Please take care while listening.

[28] I know a lot of people would think, oh, you're just upset that you got caught.

[29] I truly feel like a disgusting person.

[30] But knowing better, I allowed myself to get wrapped up in that.

[31] and that I didn't stop it.

[32] I should have.

[33] I'm Andre Gunning, and this is betrayal.

[34] Episode 5, Absolution.

[35] After Jennifer met with the sexual assault victim, she was ready to take on the next step, finding out more about the other relationships Spencer had during their marriage.

[36] From the very beginning, we talked about you potentially sitting down with the other women.

[37] Why do you want to take that on?

[38] When I first found out about these other women, I was enraged.

[39] I mean, I was calling them every name in the book.

[40] A few of these women I know.

[41] Fast forward three years later, and I've learned so much about Spence.

[42] You know, the last time I reached out to some of these women was days after.

[43] Spence went to jail and I found out, I was not very nice at the time.

[44] I remember one woman, she has two teenage daughters, and I told her, I hope you raise your daughters better than this.

[45] You were angry.

[46] Very angry, very angry.

[47] I still didn't realize who he was.

[48] He was another person with these women.

[49] I'm just trying to pull all the pieces together, kind of get all of the questions I still want answered, answered, so that I can put all of this past me. While serving in the Air National Guard, Spencer had a long -time affair with one of his bandmates.

[50] To protect her privacy, we're calling her Hope.

[51] It's not her real name.

[52] Jennifer emailed Hope, but didn't hear anything back from her.

[53] So our producer, Carrie, reached out, and a dialogue began.

[54] Hope was terrified, but also wanted to be helpful.

[55] There was so much she wanted to say, but the idea of reliving any of this was almost unbearable for her.

[56] Jennifer and Hope agreed to talk.

[57] But minutes before the agreed upon time, Hope texted that she felt sick.

[58] It was emotionally too much.

[59] The call almost didn't happen.

[60] But she mustered up the course.

[61] courage.

[62] What did you think when you got my email?

[63] I mean, I was really surprised since it had been so long since we had last been in contact.

[64] And then I just kind of felt the wave of emotions come over me again, you know, the shame, the guilt, the fear.

[65] When this first all happened, I just felt like I was completely exposed as a terrible person and felt like my world was literally crashing down around me. What year did you guys start in the Air Force together?

[66] 2015 or 16th, somewhere around that point.

[67] So I know this might be uncomfortable for you to tell me, but how did he start this?

[68] I believe it was with a text message.

[69] I remember it being the 4th of July midnight parade in Gatlinburg, and we were on the bus back to base, and I got this text message.

[70] I don't even remember what the initial start of the conversation was, but then a comment was made about, well, you're beautiful, something to that extent, and that's kind of where it started.

[71] here's an attractive guy telling me I'm pretty that came out of nowhere because even at that point I don't even remember really ever talking or having a conversation with him prior to that I mean I knew that he was new in the band and where he had come from that kind of thing but from how I remember it was like okay well let's hang out and talk and then the next thing I know it's happening so quickly that I was confused.

[72] I was like, what is this?

[73] I thought we were just hanging out talking.

[74] And then there we were.

[75] And I remember feeling like, oh, my God, what's happening?

[76] But then at the same time, I didn't do anything to stop it.

[77] Did a majority of it happen when you guys were away on those weekends in Knoxville?

[78] Yes.

[79] There was no consistency to it.

[80] But, yeah, the majority of it was on those weekends.

[81] Sorry, this is, you know, I just have to take a deep breath every once in a while.

[82] How were you able to keep it a secret from everyone, or was it not a secret?

[83] I don't know of anybody at the time that knew, at least from my end of things.

[84] I mean, I confided in my closest girlfriend in the unit afterwards, and if she knew, she didn't let on like she knew.

[85] did you still date other people or were you guys kind of exclusive no i would i mean i didn't date a lot during that period but i mean just casual dating nothing serious for me and was that because you guys did you have an agreement no no no real agreement um they're what i thought were joking comments you know here and there you know your mine kind of thing but i didn't think take that seriously, but there was no direct.

[86] You know, I don't want you to see other people.

[87] Mm -hmm.

[88] I mean, this went on for several years.

[89] How did you view this relationship?

[90] I guess just I felt, see how I put this, because it's not very kind towards myself.

[91] But just like I was being used whenever there was a need.

[92] But I really thought that he loved me. He had me convinced that he did.

[93] I mean, he told me. So if he was showing you that he loved you, why did you still feel used?

[94] I guess because there wasn't like a definitive thing that we were and two or three months would go by and I wouldn't hear anything or, you know, nothing like that.

[95] And then all of a sudden, here we are again.

[96] I guess maybe that's why I felt that way.

[97] Do you feel like you loved him?

[98] I think I loved the way he made me feel about myself more than him as a person.

[99] But at that time of my life, I very much needed to feel loved and wanted.

[100] You know, I think that's what I held on to more than anything.

[101] When you look at it now, do you feel like he manipulated you?

[102] Yeah, I thought a lot about that this morning.

[103] Thinking about things and knowing my personality and at that time of my life, you know, the deployment group, I guess, really sticks out of my mind because I wasn't nearly as talented as any of the rest of them in the group.

[104] The entire time I was in the group, I was like, I don't have anything to offer, but I felt like he made it a point to push for me to be in the band.

[105] I don't really know how I got approved.

[106] I don't know the channels that it went through, but even at the same time, I knew, like, they're way more qualified people than me. So I guess I felt like maybe that was the only reason that I was in the group and that made me feel like I owed him something.

[107] Here I'm having this awesome opportunity and I knew like I shouldn't be going.

[108] But just thinking today that may have been part of it and then just, you know, the innocent comments or walking by and brush up against me kind of thing which you know reading about grooming specifically those are some of the ways that it's done and there were a lot of instances like that just randomly out of nowhere kind of thing and that's the kind of stuff I'm curious about you know because I'm just starting to kind of learn about that grooming process as well is that how it starts just like you know, the walking by and like tap you on the shoulder or, I don't know.

[109] I mean, is that how he was?

[110] Yes.

[111] I mean, a lot of times there were just those, I mean, not completely blatant, obvious things to realize, you know, to notice, but probably to everyone else around wouldn't be obvious.

[112] I have to ask.

[113] Um, and And this is not easy for me, but was his marriage ever talked about or was I ever brought up?

[114] I don't remember much conversation other than, you know, like where you were working at the time.

[115] I mean, I knew that you traveled a lot and then just bits of conversation like when you guys opened the coffee shop.

[116] But nothing super personal.

[117] I remember that there was never any indication on his part that what we were doing was wrong.

[118] I felt it.

[119] I knew it.

[120] I mentioned it.

[121] When you mentioned it, what was his response?

[122] Just the reiteration of how he felt about me. I mean, he really never openly talked about the marriage.

[123] I feel like if I was willing, with someone over the span of four years, I would be emotionally invested.

[124] And I would have questions for him about why he's doing this.

[125] I mean, did he talk about like he was going to get divorced ever?

[126] I guess if you're asking if I felt like he was ever going to divorce to be with me, we never discussed that.

[127] And again, I guess from relationships in my past, I didn't feel like I was worth having in any kind of long term because most of the people in my life in relationships left me. And so maybe I've never even considered or expected that of him.

[128] I mean, he never discussed a future with me. And I know that makes me sound terrible.

[129] Like, you're a fool for being with someone like this.

[130] No. I think he prayed on you and did make you feel so good.

[131] That happens to a lot of people.

[132] We get sucked in.

[133] I am in no way attacking you.

[134] I have empathy for you.

[135] This still causing you pain in your life.

[136] Looking back, there was definitely more to it.

[137] So when you would see me, was it uncomfortable?

[138] It was.

[139] I felt completely guilty and horrible.

[140] Yeah.

[141] It felt weird.

[142] I didn't know how to act or how to be.

[143] It was just all so shocking.

[144] You know, first the student and then somebody I knew.

[145] I'm John Walzac, host of the new podcast Missing in Arizona.

[146] And I'm Robert Fisher.

[147] most wanted men in the world.

[148] We cloned his voice using AI.

[149] In 2001, police say I killed my family.

[150] First mom, then the kids.

[151] And rigged my house to explode.

[152] In a quiet suburb.

[153] This is the Beverly Hills of the valley, before escaping into the wilderness.

[154] There was sleet and hail and snow coming down.

[155] They found my wife's SUV.

[156] Right on the reservation boundary.

[157] And my dog flew.

[158] All I could think of is going to sniper me out of some tree.

[159] But not me. Police believe he is alive and hiding somewhere.

[160] For two years, They won't tell you anything.

[161] I've traveled the nation.

[162] I'm going down in the cave.

[163] Tracking down clues.

[164] They were thinking that I picked him up and took him somewhere.

[165] If you keep asking me this, I'm going to call the police and have you removed.

[166] Searching for Robert Fisher.

[167] One of the most dangerous fugitives in the world.

[168] Do you recognize my voice?

[169] Join an exploding house.

[170] The hunt.

[171] Family annihilation.

[172] Today.

[173] And a disappearing act.

[174] Listen to missing in Arizona every Wednesday on the IHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your favorite shows.

[175] The podium is back with fresh show.

[176] angles and deep dives into Olympic and Paralympic stories you know, and those you'll be hard -pressed to forget.

[177] I did something in 88 that hasn't been beaten.

[178] The U .S. Olympic trials is the hardest and most competitive meat in the world.

[179] We are athletes for going out there, smashing into each other, full force.

[180] Listen to The Podium on the IHeart app or your favorite podcast platform weekly and every day during the games to hear the Olympics like you've never quite heard them before.

[181] In the summer of 2020, in the small mountain town of Idlewild, California, five women disappeared in the span of just a few months.

[182] Eventually, I found out what happened to the women, all except one.

[183] A woman named Lydia Abrams, known as Dia.

[184] Her friends and family ran through endless theories.

[185] Was she hurt hiking?

[186] Did she run away?

[187] Had she been kidnapped?

[188] I'm Lucy Sherrith.

[189] I've been reporting this story for four years, and I've uncovered a tangled web of manipulation, estranged families and greed.

[190] Everyone, it seems, has a different version of events.

[191] Hear the story on Where's Deer, my new podcast from Pushkin Industries and IHeart Podcasts.

[192] Listen on the IHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to podcasts.

[193] Obviously, you know, that he got convicted.

[194] Right.

[195] Do you remember how you found out about his arrest?

[196] I do.

[197] I had pulled up in the parking lot at work.

[198] It was in the evening.

[199] And a friend from the band text and said, have you heard about Spencer?

[200] I was like, no, what's going on?

[201] And they went on to tell me, you know, well, he's been arrested.

[202] I was completely shocked.

[203] I was like, surely that can't be, but.

[204] I know that there wouldn't be an arrest warrant of that nature and that seriousness without there being some truth to it.

[205] So I guess part of me knew, okay, yeah, I can see this.

[206] You could?

[207] I mean, I guess based on some of the experiences that I had, part of me could see that that was probably true.

[208] There were things that were asked of me that I was absolutely not comfortable with.

[209] and I feel like I was forced to play a role that was not me. There would be certain looks that just made me feel different in cunning words, I guess, you know.

[210] Obviously, he had a side to him that I never knew anything about.

[211] Did you see a side to him that you didn't expect?

[212] Yeah, there was a very dominating side to him.

[213] Just some of the physical requests they were foreign to me. Looking back, I remember a couple of times where, you know, he would kind of put his hands around my throat and push down.

[214] That kind of caught me off guard.

[215] Yeah.

[216] He had a lot of fantasies that he wanted played out different things at different times.

[217] And I don't really want to be very specific.

[218] but there was a time where, you know, you asked, you know, I want you to be this way when I come in.

[219] I just didn't know anything about a lot of that.

[220] So I didn't know how to be other than just comply.

[221] When you think about Spence, what do you think of now?

[222] Or how do you see him now?

[223] I don't know.

[224] Part of me is angry at him for dragging me through all of this.

[225] That's not to say that.

[226] I don't take full responsibility for my actions.

[227] But years later, I still get very emotional about it and still have so much guilt and shame.

[228] And it makes me mad at him.

[229] You have every right to be mad at him.

[230] I mean, there's a person in the band that he has written letters to asking if I'm okay.

[231] Like, don't ask about me. Like, just don't leave me out of it.

[232] You obviously take responsibility for your decisions, but in a way, and I hope you're not offended by this word, but I almost see you as a victim.

[233] Does that make sense?

[234] I think so.

[235] I do.

[236] Many years later, why do you think you still feel so bad about this?

[237] I mean, I'm a Christian.

[238] I was raised to know right or wrong, and I just feel like I I let so many people down.

[239] It's just my nature.

[240] I'm a people -pleaser to a fault, and I can't stand the thought of somebody being disappointed in me or to know that I've hurt someone deeply.

[241] And I know at some point in my life I have to forgive myself, but it's just really hard.

[242] Who do you feel like is disappointed in you?

[243] Still?

[244] Obviously, the commander of the unit, here I've taken this pledge to put honesty, integrity, in service before self, and I failed at that.

[245] What is the shame?

[246] Where is that coming from?

[247] Is it just having an affair and getting caught?

[248] No, I know a lot of people would think, oh, you're just upset that you got caught.

[249] No, I truly feel like a disgusting person.

[250] But knowing better, I allowed myself to get right.

[251] wrapped up in that, and that I didn't stop it.

[252] I should have.

[253] When you're around the band members now, what is that like for you?

[254] I don't know who in the band knows, who doesn't.

[255] I assume that everyone does, but thankfully there are some genuinely good people that realize people make mistakes.

[256] I was surprised at the people that chose to write and communicate, and that until you, Nobody has reached out to me to see how I'm doing with all of it, you know.

[257] I'm sorry no one's reached out to you.

[258] I can't believe people in the unit have been writing dispense after everything he's done.

[259] Another thing I never really fully understood was I got the standoffish vibes, but then I know that there were some that were very proactive in defending him.

[260] And I was outcast.

[261] how could these people go and defend somebody who did this to a child?

[262] Do you ever get angry about that?

[263] I do, yeah.

[264] It just feels unfair, you know, to have the commander of the unit come into the band building, dressed in the suit, ready to go to headquarters to plead a case for somebody to get an honorable discharge and to not even speak to me or be able to really look at me. that's a really shitty thing to do.

[265] You're going to waltz in there and tell them what a great guy this person is that's in prison for sexual assaults of a student.

[266] Six counts.

[267] And I think that's the first time I verbalized that to anybody, how that has made me feel, especially specifically with people in the unit.

[268] Did you ever think that there might be other.

[269] women?

[270] No, I never, that never crossed my mind.

[271] Not to say that I was something spectacular that he didn't want to go anywhere else, but now I'm kind of curious, like, how extensive is this?

[272] Or was I the only idiot out there that fell for this?

[273] Besides the high school student, there were many other women.

[274] Okay.

[275] I don't know how that makes you feel.

[276] I don't mean to hurt you.

[277] No, I don't think it as that.

[278] It's just I'm not the only one that hurt you or that was hurt most likely themselves.

[279] Have you ever thought about writing him a letter?

[280] Yes and no. I've been given his address.

[281] And every time that I thought about it, I was like, no. I'm not ready.

[282] First of all, I don't want to give him the satisfaction of me reaching out to him.

[283] Mm -hmm.

[284] And then, like, what would I say?

[285] Mm -hmm.

[286] Maybe it would feel good to write it and never send it.

[287] But, yeah, I've chosen not to.

[288] I wish I could forget the whole thing.

[289] I was a person that I don't recognize, and I don't remember that person.

[290] This is not the worst thing that has ever happened in the world.

[291] and if we cannot learn and grow from the bumps of life.

[292] Yeah, that's a good way to look at it.

[293] You're getting married in two weeks.

[294] I am.

[295] You must be so excited.

[296] I feel a lot better now that we've gotten through all of this.

[297] I don't feel as a braid, I guess.

[298] Good.

[299] And my fiancé knows this situation.

[300] I think that's truly amazing that he can, know me at my lowest points and all of the bad decisions and still find it and it's hard to love me. So I feel very undeserving of it, but I'm very thankful for it.

[301] You shouldn't.

[302] We all deserve that.

[303] I mean, I think about it too.

[304] Am I ever going to meet someone that is okay with the fact that I was married to this guy who got sent to prison, you know?

[305] I just, I don't want you living with this hanging over your head.

[306] anyway, because it's over, you know?

[307] Right.

[308] It was like a different chapter, but you're about to embark on a new chapter.

[309] Don't carry this in with it.

[310] Okay.

[311] I don't look at this situation like what a bitch.

[312] I can't believe she had an affair.

[313] I look at it as you were caught up in something, that was incredibly manipulative without knowing that somebody was being manipulative.

[314] Your side of the story, I think, is as important as mine if anybody's going to learn something from this.

[315] You know there's somebody else out there who feels shame about an affair they had, you know?

[316] I appreciate how comfortable you've made me feel.

[317] Remember, this is, not easy for me, but you made me feel comfortable as well.

[318] And congratulations again.

[319] Thank you.

[320] I appreciate that.

[321] Enjoy and be happy.

[322] Do you think you can?

[323] I think I can now.

[324] I feel more at peace about it.

[325] I think at this point I can at least try to forgive myself and move forward.

[326] I beat myself up over it for the rest of my life, for a time of my life that is no more.

[327] Well, I hope you know that I don't hold anger or bitterness toward you.

[328] Yeah, thankful for that.

[329] I'm John Walsack, host of the new podcast Missing in Arizona.

[330] And I'm Robert Fisher, one of the most wanted men in the world.

[331] We cloned his voice using AI.

[332] In 2001, police say I killed my family.

[333] mom than the kids and rigged my house to explode in a quiet suburb this is the beverly hills of the valley before escaping into the wilderness there was sleet and hail and snow coming down they found my wife's SUV right on the reservation boundary and my dog blew all i could think of is in the sniper me out of some tree but not me police believe he is alive and hiding somewhere for two years they won't tell you anything i've traveled the nation i'm going down in the cave tracking down clues they were thinking that i picked him up and took somewhere.

[334] If you keep asking me this, I'm going to call the police and have you removed.

[335] Searching for Robert Fisher.

[336] One of the most dangerous fugitives in the world.

[337] Do you recognize my voice?

[338] Join an exploding house.

[339] The hunt.

[340] Family annihilation.

[341] Today.

[342] And a disappearing act.

[343] Listen to missing in Arizona every Wednesday on the IHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your favorite shows.

[344] The podium is back with fresh angles and deep dives into Olympic and Paralympic stories you know and those you'll be hard pressed to forget.

[345] I need something.

[346] I need Something in 88 that hasn't been beaten.

[347] Gosh, the U .S. only of the trials is the hardest and most competitive meat in the world.

[348] We are athletes who are going out there, smashing into each other, full force.

[349] Listen to The Podium on the IHeart app or your favorite podcast platform weekly and every day during the games to hear the Olympics like you've never quite heard them before.

[350] In the summer of 2020, in the small mountain town of Idlewild, California, five women disappeared.

[351] in the span of just a few months.

[352] Eventually, I found out what happened to the women, all except one, a woman named Lydia Abrams, known as Dia.

[353] Her friends and family ran through endless theories.

[354] Was she hurt hiking?

[355] Did she run away?

[356] Had she been kidnapped?

[357] I'm Lucy Sherrith.

[358] I've been reporting this story for four years, and I've uncovered a tangled web of manipulation, estranged families and greed.

[359] Everyone, it seems, has a different version of events.

[360] Hear the story on Where's Dea, my new podcast from Pushkin Industries and IHeart Podcasts.

[361] Listen on the IHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen to podcasts.

[362] I wanted to regroup with you on something that Hope said because I found it really heartbreaking.

[363] She mentioned that she was being snubbed by people in the Air Force band.

[364] Meanwhile, there are people in the band that are going and speaking on Spence's behalf.

[365] And that just felt so hypocritical.

[366] So after talking with hope, I feel for her.

[367] You know, she still holds so much shame about what she's.

[368] did.

[369] And so me talking to her, it was really nice to hear her side of the story because I've read a lot of correspondence between Hope and Spence.

[370] And that relationship is exactly what I thought it was.

[371] Him manipulating her, telling her he loves her, and having her do things she's not comfortable with.

[372] And you can just see it.

[373] Then when I hear that everybody is snubbing her and in making her to feel like she's the bad guy here and they go and they defend Spence, it made me so mad as soon as I got off the phone, I called up one of the leaders that was in this fan.

[374] Great guy.

[375] You know, this is part of our extended family.

[376] So I found.

[377] comfortable calling him, but I confronted him and I was upset and said, I heard that you guys all went in and spoke up on Spence's behalf and tried to say nice things about him.

[378] All in an effort for an honorable discharge.

[379] Yeah, yeah.

[380] He was really honest about it, didn't get defensive, and he heard me out, and then he explained his side.

[381] The band is like a family, for sure.

[382] And so they look after one another.

[383] I didn't understand why they were looking after Spence so much, though.

[384] But what he told me was everything that they did is for the kids for Spence's family, so that they are not affected any more than they already are.

[385] So like if he has an honorable discharge, then he'll still get a pension or something.

[386] like that.

[387] I think it's a financial thing.

[388] You know, they get benefits, insurance, and all sorts of stuff.

[389] Yeah, there's nuance to this.

[390] Right.

[391] So when he explained it that way, I did understand their reasoning.

[392] And I want hope to know that that's the reasoning too.

[393] Maybe that'll help provide some context.

[394] And I hope that they'll be a little bit nicer to her.

[395] I hope so.

[396] What struck me the most from your conversation was her willingness to own it all and be very self -aware of where she was in the time of her life when she got involved with your ex -husband.

[397] It's so stripped down and honest.

[398] And I think a lot of people can relate to decisions that you make when you're not your best self or you don't have the best faculties, like, you know, self -worth.

[399] And that takes a tremendous amount of courage and vulnerability, to be honest.

[400] She was so brave in talking to me and doing this, and I'm so glad she did because, yes, she made mistakes and she made some poor choices.

[401] There is another side, though.

[402] She was preyed upon, and I think people tend to pray on people and manipulate people who are a little more vulnerable and do need and crave that attention.

[403] Hopefully, anybody hearing her story will realize, you know, no way, I'm worth more, I deserve better, and will realize that the behavior that some of these people are portraying, it's not okay.

[404] You've talked to the high school student, talk to Hope, and I know that part of this whole process, you've wanted to have a face -to -face with Spencer.

[405] Are you ready to get that ball rolling?

[406] Yeah, I dread seeing Spence again.

[407] I really do, because I've not seen him since the day he was arrested.

[408] But this is about finding answers and having more clarity and understanding about who he was and why he did this.

[409] And so, yeah, I have to sit down with him and talk to him.

[410] He promised me he is totally willing to talk with me and answer questions.

[411] You know, there may be some he doesn't want to answer, but he agreed.

[412] He said totally willing to do this.

[413] So what we're going to try and do is set up like a formal one -on -one at the prison.

[414] Gosh, can you imagine walking into that prison?

[415] That is going to be one of the scariest moments of my life.

[416] Yeah.

[417] You know, it's one thing just to talk to him from there, but it would be another to walk in to this prison that he's locked up in.

[418] Oh, my gosh, I can't wait to be done.

[419] I just want to have one last conversation with him, and then I can just put this to bed.

[420] It's behind me. I don't ever need to correspond with him again.

[421] And still to come this season, Jennifer confronts Spencer.

[422] The last time we talked, you felt as if you were fine and cured and it has gone away.

[423] I still feel that way.

[424] If you'd like to reach out to the Betrayal team, email us at BetrayalPod at gmail .com.

[425] That's Betrayal P -O -D at Gmail .com.

[426] Betrayal is a production of Glass Podcasts, a division of Glass Entertainment Group and partnership with IHeart Podcasts.

[427] The show was executive produced by Nancy Glass and Jennifer Fasin, hosted and produced by me, Andrea Gunning, written and produced by Carrie Hartman, also produced by Ben Fetterman.

[428] Our I -Heart team is Ali Perry and Jessica Kreinsk.

[429] Special thanks to voice actors Todd Gans and Rocky Alt, sound editing and mixing done by Matt DeVecchio, The Trails theme was composed by Oliver Baines, music library provided by Mind Music, and for more podcasts from IHeart, visit the IHeart Radio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts.

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