My Favorite Murder Presents: I Saw What You Did - Episode 1: Esteemed Dirtbags

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[1] Guys, we're so excited because our new film podcast, I Saw What You Did, has premiered.

[2] We are sharing episode one with you here in the My Favorite Murder Feed.

[3] And then episode two of the podcast comes out today.

[4] So head on over and subscribe to I Saw What You Did to listen to this week's episode.

[5] I Saw What You Did is hosted by film expert Millie Decharico and film enthusiast and TV writer Danielle Henderson.

[6] Every Tuesday, they present you with a double feature covering two movies that share a wild theme like classic movie fuckboys or blonde women who will ruin your life.

[7] The theme for this episode entitled to Steam Dirtbags is favorite films based on true crime and they discuss the movie's heavenly creatures and the honeymoon killers.

[8] Plus, Danielle's grandma made a special appearance in this episode that already broke the internet with her child rearing advice using horror films as learning tools.

[9] And on top of all that, Millie and Danielle bring a much -needed female and person of color voice to movie culture in a really fun way.

[10] So check out episode one of I Saw What You Did right now and go find episode two in the I Saw What You Did feed.

[11] You'll get a new episode presenting a double feature every Tuesday.

[12] Don't forget to subscribe to I Saw What You did on Stitcher, Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you listen.

[13] And you can follow them at I Saw Pod on Instagram and on Twitter.

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[15] Hi, everybody.

[16] Welcome to the very first episode of I Saw What You Did.

[17] My name is Millie de Cherokee.

[18] And I'm Danielle Henderson.

[19] And we're going to be watching a different double feature every week with a wild theme that we choose.

[20] Let's legitimize ourselves.

[21] Let's endear ourselves to you as an audience.

[22] Well, I feel like it's important that people know that we're like we're friends in real life.

[23] Yes, we know each other.

[24] We love each other.

[25] This is not just a business arrangement.

[26] But we were not set up on a date from the podcast Bachelor or whatever.

[27] like but we're we're real friends like we're we're like met on live journal friends like we've known each other for way back met in real life and now both live in Los Angeles although you you have defected for a moment you're momentarily elsewhere you're in your secret bunker yeah but I think we're excited to do this podcast because I'm a film enthusiast but you are a film expert and we go to the movies all the time and it's a big part of our friendship is to watch movies talk about movies yeah i mean honestly like i think i mean if you want to call me a film expert i'll let you for the sake of this exercise but i will say um i never want to hang out with other film experts do you know what i'm saying like i'm like why would i do that so i'm so glad that i roped you into doing this podcast with me because i'm like daniel is she's like a perfect you like love film But you're not like, you know, in that world where you're like, well, actually, yeah, I'm not in 1948, the key grip for, you know, blah, blah, blah.

[28] You're not, you know, nailing me every five minutes for getting like a year wrong for something.

[29] No way.

[30] Well, at least I wasn't until we started doing this.

[31] And now I'm going to walk straight, cold facts.

[32] Or get out.

[33] But that's why I'm glad to be doing this with you as well.

[34] Because when I say filmed expert, I mean it.

[35] Like you're so knowledgeable about film and it's part of your job.

[36] You're a film programmer for TCM, but it's also part of your life.

[37] So when you talk about movies, it's just so enthusiastic and you don't make me feel like, oh, you've never watched this.

[38] We'll get, I can't talk to you if you've never watched, you know, gone with the wind.

[39] And it's, you know, I like that.

[40] I appreciate that about it.

[41] Oh, that's really sweet.

[42] I'm really glad that you see me like that because I think, again, going back to sort of like the film person stereotypes, like, you know, I think that film like music, like a lot of things, is just an intimidating subject because it's, you know, span the course of history.

[43] It's, there's a lot going on.

[44] There's a lot that has gone on.

[45] And so it's sort of like a thing where you're like, oh, man, I don't even know.

[46] I think it's really enjoyable to hang out with people who haven't watched movies that I watched.

[47] And I'm also not the type of person that's trying to like get you to watch a movie, like in that way where it's like, come on, what are you stupid?

[48] like you've never seen blah blah blah that's I just think that's so there's so many reasons why people haven't watched I mean there's a lot of movies I haven't watched that would probably shock so many people in my field for me to do a podcast with somebody who's more of a cultural critic I would say about you I think that you're a writer you're definitely a scholar of culture and gender and you know it's just going to be really interesting to do it with you because you're just so super smart like I mean honestly like Like, you are way more accomplished than I am.

[49] I'm like going, oh, you've like written two books and you are, you know, really well known for your perspective and what you offer.

[50] So it's going to be great.

[51] But the good, the cool things that I'm not wearing pants right now.

[52] So accomplished or not, I'm still a dirt bag.

[53] I think it's what it comes down to is that we can still be complete dirt bags.

[54] Exactly.

[55] But being, you know, esteemed.

[56] esteemed dirt bags would be a great second name for our podcast but that's also why we're doing this we are we want to make movies accessible to people and make people feel like you know if you've never seen this then let's talk about it it's cool you'll have ways to an accessible way to get into movies you might not have ever seen or heard of and we just want to help you build up your your library in that way and build your fun in your life because some of these are fun and we're going to get into doing that by picking a different theme that we have come up with every week.

[57] The themes are going to be sort of informed by our experiences as women.

[58] Our experiences is like moviegoers and then just our life experiences.

[59] And so I mean, I want to stress that a lot of times you're going to come to the podcast and go, oh, wait a minute, what about this movie?

[60] That's what the point is.

[61] Like we want, we're not trying to be exhaustive.

[62] We're not.

[63] These are basically like double features about specific.

[64] themes that we think are like entertaining or funny or just sort of through lines between movies that we've seen over the years.

[65] And like I said, we want to have that conversation with you.

[66] If there's something in the theme that you think is like a no -brainer and you want to talk about it is something that means something to you, then definitely contact us.

[67] That's what we want.

[68] And we want this to be like a conversation.

[69] And it's also cool that we're not white or men.

[70] We're two brown ladies.

[71] Welcome.

[72] White men.

[73] dominate film podcast.

[74] Let's be real.

[75] And we wanted to kind of disrupt that a little bit and again, prove that films are for everyone.

[76] Yeah.

[77] That's what we're doing.

[78] I'm so happy that we're at least getting together and talking about movies on this podcast because it's like, you know, right now, I won't tell you, I'm living with family.

[79] I'm quarantining with family right now.

[80] And you talk about people that don't know a damn thing about movies.

[81] Like, they don't know a damn thing.

[82] And I'm not, again, I'm not trying to, like, paint them as like, you know, oh, man, what a, I'm not a snob.

[83] I'm, like, the opposite of a snob.

[84] But they don't know shit.

[85] Like, you're living with people who don't even speak your language, basically.

[86] Yeah.

[87] I mean, I'm like, my mom and dad have, like, seven DVDs, I think.

[88] They're just, there's, like, seven DVDs in a drawer, and it's the most random shit.

[89] it's like um you know euro trip and then like dunkirk what like um yeah there's like a you know the nicholas cage scorsese movie that was about the ambulance driver like that movie bringing out the dead is that what it's called oh my gosh i mean i'm like i have no idea why the seven were chosen um and they just i mean it's really really bad like but it's kind of like funny to me because obviously I'm like, I don't know how I was born from this ambivalence, you know, but it's, it's funny.

[90] I think it allowed you to go harder in the direction of figuring, finding stuff out because it was both, you know, the 90s where you had to, there was no internet, you had to find out stuff that you were interested in.

[91] You had to really dig deep.

[92] But when you come from a background where you're like, none of this is even around me, like, I don't know any of this stuff.

[93] Then, of course you go harder at it.

[94] Yeah.

[95] And like, honestly, like when it comes down to it, my parents.

[96] are like big cable not like they're into cable movies i guess that's better than being in like cable news but they're they will watch anything on like a tn t or like uh you know anything that's on like stars um you know they're just really into like watching movies that are just randomly on like my dad watched cb4 the other day and i was like kind of awesome i was like that's awesome like what made you want to watch cb4 i mean like do you even know what cb4 is like parody I mean, it's so funny.

[97] That is my favorite thing I've ever heard because I've met your parents and that is darling.

[98] So we're going to have to get my dad on the CB4 episode apparently.

[99] Completely.

[100] He can talk about it.

[101] I have kind of an opposite background, which we'll dig into as the podcast goes on.

[102] But I was raised by maniacs, my grandparents, and my grandmother loves horror movies and she loves gore.

[103] She loves carnage.

[104] And so my granddad, when he died, she put his ashes.

[105] on a shelf in her bedroom behind her saw and hostile DVDs.

[106] So this bitch watches movies all day long, and they are terrifying and disgusting.

[107] And we're going to hear, we might hear from her later.

[108] We'll occasionally call her up and get her opinion on it.

[109] Oh, my God.

[110] It cannot wait.

[111] So basically, so the theme of this podcast and the way that we're introducing and talking to movies and being part of the film community is that we're each going to watch a movie every week.

[112] We're going to watch these two movies and present them to each other.

[113] What's the theme this week?

[114] The theme this week is our favorite true crime films.

[115] Oh, list of a mile long.

[116] Yes, so this is these are movies that were based in part on actual crimes.

[117] And, you know, again, like you said, it can be a very long list.

[118] But, you know, these are kind of our faves.

[119] What did you watch for your true crime?

[120] So my movie this week is a movie from 1970 directed by a man named Leonard Cassidy.

[121] It's called The Honeymoon Killers.

[122] Ray was a con man who made one mistake.

[123] He fell in love and took Martha along for the ride.

[124] I can arrange a meeting with a very nice woman in the Warland.

[125] There's no harm in writing to somebody who's so gentle and refined and whose sister is a nurse.

[126] Ray and Martha could have been the honeymoon lovers, but Martha's insane jealousy turned them into the honeymoon killers.

[127] So have you ever seen this movie before?

[128] No, I'd never seen it until we decided to talk about it.

[129] And a lot of things stood out to me as pretty fantastic about it.

[130] A lot of themes we'll get into and talk about.

[131] But I was really primarily struck by the lead actress of this film.

[132] So maybe you can tell us a little bit about why you chose this movie and who she is and what's based on.

[133] So, you know, this is one of actually my favorite films.

[134] I mean, you know, I have a lot.

[135] But this is one of them.

[136] So the original story was based off of this couple who were called the Lonely Hearts Killers.

[137] Their names are Martha Beck and Raymond Fernandez.

[138] And they were essentially con artists where their whole con was that they relied on this Lonely Hearts Club, which is a very old concept now.

[139] It's like OG Tinder.

[140] Oh, yeah.

[141] It was essentially where lonely women would write in, write letters to find lonely men, and then they get paired up, and then they just wrote letters to each other.

[142] Yeah.

[143] And what's cool about Martha and Ray is that they, at least in terms of the movie, and I believe in real life, is that they actually had a very vibrant letter writing life to get.

[144] Like, they really fell in love through their words.

[145] Well, that's the whole, that's one of the best sequences in the movie is there.

[146] sort of like writing letters to each other, and there's kind of this build -up and intensity where, you know, at first they're kind of just like, hey, how's it going?

[147] And then they're like, I love you.

[148] I'm obsessed with you.

[149] I can't love without you.

[150] So it becomes this whole like fevered letter writing exchange.

[151] So essentially the movie was the first movie for Leonard Castle.

[152] He wrote it initially.

[153] Then they went to find a director for it.

[154] And initially the director was Martin Scorsese.

[155] He lasted about two weeks.

[156] He was apparently he was like spending too much time on of details.

[157] Like he was like panning the riverbed or something for too long.

[158] Oh no. Yeah.

[159] I mean, he was basically an artiste.

[160] So they were like uh -uh.

[161] Like we're spending too much money and too much time doing this shit.

[162] Like we gotta get this.

[163] We need to get to the murders.

[164] Yeah.

[165] So they can Marty and then they brought in Leonard.

[166] They're like well you wrote it.

[167] You might as well direct it.

[168] He had never directed before.

[169] Which first of all such a 70s move.

[170] Like that guy.

[171] And then the two actors that started in it Shirley Stoller and Tony Lobionco this was their first film.

[172] So it's like everybody's first time.

[173] Even though Shirley and Tony had worked in the theater, they had never been on film before.

[174] And the thing about Leonard Castle was that when he took over the direction of it, he was basically like, Bonnie and Clyde had just come out in like 68.

[175] And this movie was 69, 70.

[176] So at the time, everybody was obsessed with, you know, Bonnie and Clyde and this idea that like beautiful Warren Beatty and Fay Dunaway were these like hot, sexy murderers.

[177] And Larry Castle's like, fuck that.

[178] Like, I don't want to show sexy, hot people.

[179] I want to show the actual people who are real people who are not, you know, hot movie stars.

[180] Like, we're going to get some real folks in here.

[181] Well, he had the perfect opportunity with this movie because Martha as a character is a mess.

[182] And I mean, physically, like, he showed that, like, he shot them in different angles where he could show, like, the flabby arms and like he really showed like the the reality of what it is to be an obsessive love well and like shirley stoller is such an amazing actress i think honestly i mean she is my girl like i'm a big fan of her she's she's been a lot of great interesting weird films in her career did a lot of character work she's definitely a proto nurse ratchet oh yeah she kind of has that look she's got the like she kind of has like a divine like she's like a very like her eyebrows are really intense and she just kind of has this like like cult look to her.

[183] Plus the movie opens with her like yelling at people for having sex.

[184] So in the film, essentially it kind of just cuts to, it kind of removes a little bit of the backstory between Martha and Ray like individually about the Ray character doesn't have like the thing where he had come from Spain and left his family to become a car artist.

[185] And it doesn't talk about Martha having kids or anything like that.

[186] And they lived in different states.

[187] Yeah.

[188] So essentially in the film, Martha is a nurse and she's living in Florida and she lives with her elderly mother.

[189] And she's just kind of like angsty and mean and like yelling at people at her job.

[190] And she doesn't seem happy.

[191] I guess that's what they're trying to communicate.

[192] And not only lives with her mother, sleeps in a bedroom with her mother.

[193] Yeah.

[194] Like they have twin.

[195] The twin bed situation of the 40s and 50s, I think, is the reason a lot of murders happened?

[196] Because I could not, it was so tense to watch that relationship simply because you knew they then had to lay down next to each other at night.

[197] Well, I mean, listen, that is an old school thing.

[198] Like, I mean, I, like, I remember watching episodes of the Golden Girls where Sophia and Dorothy slept in the same bed and I was like, oh, damn.

[199] Like, I love my mom, but unless we're on vacation together, I ain't trying to sleep in the same bed because I need my space.

[200] No. And especially at that moment where she was feeling like, you know, lonely and it was basically like, oh, I live with my mom and I sleep in the same room with my mom.

[201] Like, I have no life.

[202] So she's, you know, obviously, like, kind of feeling some type of way about it.

[203] But, like, essentially what happens is, is that her friend in the film, who is played by Doris Roberts from Everybody Loves Raymond, as a lark, decides that she's going to send Martha, like, she's going to sign Martha up for a Lonely Hearts Club.

[204] And, um, it does.

[205] And Martha is like, oh, shit, why did you do this?

[206] I'm not looking for this.

[207] But then eventually she gets in touch with Ray, and Ray is writing letters to her.

[208] And then that's when you see the sequence of the two of them kind of connecting, writing letters to each other, et cetera.

[209] And he's a Lothario right off the bat.

[210] Like, he's got pictures of women on his piano or the women he's wooed.

[211] Like, you get that solidly that he is.

[212] He is the classic Latin lover trope where he's, you know, kind of with a shirt open in his chest hair hanging out.

[213] And he's real sexy.

[214] So they finally meet in real life.

[215] He comes down to Florida and they spend, you know, a couple days together and he's wooing both her and her mother, I'll have to say.

[216] And then he leaves and Martha is despondent.

[217] So he goes back to New York and then he writes her kind of like a dear J letter that's just like, I like you, but it ain't going to happen.

[218] And of course, she flips the fuck out.

[219] Threatens suicide immediately.

[220] Threatens suicide gets Doris Roberts to.

[221] call him and be like, can you tell him I'm about to kill myself?

[222] Because I just really want him.

[223] Like, I want to date him.

[224] That was such a creepy scene where she was just sitting on the bed, like coaching her friend to do this dirty work of convincing this man that she was about to kill herself for him.

[225] That was like next level.

[226] Like, we've, we've all, I feel like we can all say we've threatened to kill ourselves over a guy.

[227] But when I get my friend involved, like that is next level psychopathic behavior.

[228] I mean, it is tantamount to like, you know, posting like a fobby picture of yourself on Instagram and be like, yo, like, you know.

[229] Exactly.

[230] Pay attention to me, guy that I want to date.

[231] But basically, she...

[232] But it works.

[233] Well, it worked in this case because Ray was like, all right, fine.

[234] Come to New York.

[235] So he's like, here's the deal.

[236] I con lonely middle -aged women for money.

[237] Maybe you, maybe not.

[238] I tried it with you, and apparently it didn't work.

[239] Because now you're here.

[240] And this is who I am.

[241] And I love that if she was just like, you know what?

[242] solid.

[243] She's like, fuck yeah.

[244] Let's do it together.

[245] She's like, I don't care.

[246] And he's like, what?

[247] She sees me. I guess, you know, this is meant to be or whatever.

[248] And that is something about this movie that hit me over like right away as an overarching theme is this idea of obsessiveness.

[249] And I don't think it came through in the movie very strongly that he was obsessed with her because I think in real life he was.

[250] But it definitely came through from her that she was willing to do anything for this particular man. Well, I think that that's the theme of the film.

[251] Yeah.

[252] Is that the film is about lonely women.

[253] Right.

[254] And lonely women who are willing to just fucking go there for companionship, she was like, like, okay, like I'm down with this.

[255] And I will be not only that, but I will be your accomplice.

[256] And I will help you swindle these women, even though I was potentially a victim of yours.

[257] Girl on Girl Crime.

[258] Right.

[259] So she's like, so then eventually she's like, I'm on board, let me go back down to Florida, get my mom in a nursing home so I don't have to deal with her anymore.

[260] I've already drugged her so we could have sex.

[261] P .S. I've already sleeping pilled her to the max.

[262] Right.

[263] And I'm a nurse.

[264] So I'm an expert at drugging people.

[265] So that's, and then of course the mother is like, you know, you're leaving me to be happy.

[266] And that's, you know, it's very complicated.

[267] But that was also a different time and something that struck me is that it was expected for women to first give up their lives for men and then give up their lives for family in every capacity.

[268] Her mom is like legit hanging out a window like, I can't believe you're leaving me. Like could not be laying on a thicker guilt trip.

[269] Yeah.

[270] And she's like, in order for me to live my life, I have to marry a con man and become a murderer.

[271] So eventually what happens is that she leaves mom and then she starts.

[272] going on the road with Ray.

[273] And, you know, Ray is continuing to, you know, do his scam, which is that he's answering his letters from these lonely old women, you know, who are writing in.

[274] And I have to say, like, they're victims during this entire section of the film are their tip, they're like, what I would consider kind of like that middle America.

[275] They're all, like, middle -aged white women who are into Jesus and the United States and they are patriotic, and they're just kind of like...

[276] These are women who are so happy that they will sing the national anthem in the bath tub, which was something that rocked me more than the murders.

[277] When I saw that bitch in that tub scrubbing her back and singing about the Purple Mountains Majesty, I was like, what is actually happening right now?

[278] And I was like, I don't even know if I've been ever the...

[279] I don't think I've ever been that happy where I'm like singing the national anthem.

[280] Ever.

[281] Yeah.

[282] Much less in a tub or a shower.

[283] That's true.

[284] That's not the height of happiness for me. And that's also not, like, the first song I go to whenever I'm just, like, in the shower or whatever.

[285] I can't go to, like, a Nat King Cole.

[286] So, but anyway, as a, you know, so what happens is that, like, as this, these scams are unfolding, like, she's, like, she's posing as his sister.

[287] So they're going to these different towns, meeting up with these lonely women.

[288] And the vibe is that he's just going to, like, romance them until they sign their insurance checks or they give them, give them, give them cash.

[289] from their bank accounts and then he's gone, or they're gone.

[290] So while this is happening, like Martha is going, all right, I know I was on board with this, but man, it is hard to see the dude that I love and would have killed myself for be with other women.

[291] And I know that he's telling me, oh, I don't mean nothing to me, and I'm not having sex with them, even though he's having sex with them, like some of them.

[292] And she's just slowly becoming unglued.

[293] And, you know, as I'm reading this, the actual crime, it seemed like that was happening too.

[294] But I think for the movie purposes, it became this whole, like, what's going to happen when Martha finally flips the fuck out on the situation that she's in now, where she's basically told herself, well, in order to be with this guy, then I'm going to have to run this scam and pretend to be not in love with them.

[295] And there's a scene, my favorite scene, and actually the scene that one of the two scenes that Martin Scorsese actually shot, which is the scene at the lake, where he's with one of his new women and, like, they're both in these bathing suits, you know, like Tony Lo Bianco is like a cut, little cut, a tail shirt with these tiny shorts and he's got hair everywhere and he's just like doing push -ups on the banks of the river and shit.

[296] Like, you know, and then his new woman, the woman from the service is like, she's like an older woman, but she's very, you know, she's attractive and fit and she's wearing this bathing suit.

[297] And then you see Martha sitting there.

[298] in a robe because Lord knows it's vulnerable to be in a bathing suit especially when at her size where she was feeling like kind of not right about the way she looked and then you're watching your man cavorting with some other woman in a bathing suit and they're in the river like you know splashing each other and she's just like losing it like her eyes just like you know whatever and it's like there's that moment where I was like man is there anything lonelyer than that?

[299] Like, is there anything lonelier than watching, like, your crush or your guy hanging out with some other girl in bathing suits?

[300] Yeah.

[301] And then you are having it in a bathing suit and you don't want to be in a bathing suit.

[302] So, well, she did the next natural thing, which is to threaten to drown herself.

[303] And then Ray, you know, it's Ray's time.

[304] He is to go get her.

[305] And, you know, I think at that moment you really realize, okay, well, maybe they are in it together.

[306] Because at first I was kind of like, oh, he's taking this woman for a ride again.

[307] But then I'm like, no, he cares, right?

[308] And if anything, he cares because she is on to him and will bust his ass for running these scams.

[309] Like, they're in it together now.

[310] There's no turning back.

[311] But then she's the one who kind of goes to the murder moment, right?

[312] Like, she's the one who kind of goes to, like, I'm going to put this lady on a bus and give her pills and get her out of our life.

[313] And I don't care what happens to her.

[314] And that was kind of a sadness that I was feeling in this movie, which is that.

[315] It's so sad that these women were being swindled so much and all they really wanted was attention and care and love.

[316] Like that was sad.

[317] Yeah, I mean, this is kind of like, I mean, this is probably what makes the movie kind of a good movie to me and what makes it emotional is because it's like, you know, ultimately this is a story about a woman who is just desperate for connection and she basically just like will do it at any cost.

[318] and the weird thing about this movie is that there is kind of like no one to root for at the end of the day because eventually she becomes completely complicit like even though you're like okay I understand why she's doing this she's doing it because she's fucked up about love right but at the same time you're like no you drowned a kid yeah and then you know you like you hit a lady with a hammer and he had a lady with a hammer and he drowned her kid and like so you're in it and like whatever mental jump that you're you you had a take to go there, makes you not likable.

[319] Right.

[320] But I also think that that is interesting that she's not likable.

[321] Because there's no happy ending to any of this.

[322] It's like that, you know, in real life, these people were convicted of these murders and then they died in the electric chair.

[323] They were, you know, killed for their crimes.

[324] Yeah.

[325] So that's the thing is that there is no happy ending.

[326] And, you know, that's what I think is great about the film is that it doesn't pretend to be happy.

[327] It's just like, oh, yeah, they are as bad.

[328] as they are, and there is no love.

[329] Like, it's just like they're horrible people in the end.

[330] It also kind of feels like a very nice point of departure from a lot of true crime films because they're not trying, I don't even feel like the victims were that sympathetic in a lot of ways.

[331] Like, I don't think they deserve to die, but I think that some of them were a little annoying and a little needy and a little cloying and a little bit much.

[332] So I can see how, again, the representation of that in film is that this is something to be wary of as a woman like don't be too much because a man might kill you well yeah that's it's another interesting part of it for sure because you know it is sort of like you wonder i mean there's a absolute stereotype of like a lonely middle -aged spinster who is annoying and is who and is not you know uh soft and gentle and they're you know they're weird and kooky none of these women seem to be culturally acceptable right so like if these women had existed now would have been completely fine for them to be on their own, to not have a dude, to like live their own life.

[333] They wouldn't have to have the twin bed situation with their moms.

[334] But they were not culturally acceptable within the moment, you know, because they wanted too much or they wanted something different.

[335] And that's interesting to me from a true crime perspective for sure.

[336] Yeah.

[337] But, you know, as a movie, I mean, it's great.

[338] Like, I think it's a gem, honestly.

[339] I feel like it doesn't get talked about enough.

[340] It's on Criterion Collection.

[341] So there's a really great, you know, copy of it out there and there's lots of great extras on that I think it's on Blu -ray but you know it's it's such a great film and it's again it's very unique in the sense that it was made in a certain time it was made by like it was the first films for pretty much everybody involved and it you know really is kind of like a gritty raw sort of fucked up movie it's savage it's one of those movies that I kind of I want even though I'm just seeing it now for the first time at 42 I want young women to watch this movie and to realize that, again, not taking the leap into murder, but to realize that, you know, your feelings are valid and it's hard to date.

[342] It's hard to be out in the world.

[343] And it's hard to want things.

[344] And like, it's hard to have these, these emotions.

[345] But to kind of see this real ordinary woman, I think it's important, foundationally, for girls to see that, like, to see complicated, messy women.

[346] Well, speaking of complicated messy women.

[347] Yeah.

[348] And speaking of obsession.

[349] Let's talk about your movie for this week.

[350] My movie this week is Heavenly Creatures, directed by Peter Jackson.

[351] They were two young girls living in a world of imagination.

[352] I'm going to the fourth world.

[353] It's an absolute paradise of music, art, and pure enjoyment.

[354] What they shared was a secret.

[355] Your daughters in behaving in a rather disturbed manner.

[356] What's she done?

[357] I think I'm going crazy.

[358] See?

[359] The crime that shocked the nation.

[360] People die every day.

[361] We need the best people fight against all obstacles.

[362] She's uncontrollable.

[363] So this movie came out in 1994, directed by Peter Jackson.

[364] It was based on a real -life case that happened in Christchurch, New Zealand.

[365] It's the Parker Hume murder.

[366] And the details of the case is that 16 -year -old Pauline Parker and her 15 -year -old, Pauline, Parker, year old bestie, Juliet Hume, basically conspired to kill her mom when they couldn't, when they found out Juliet's family was moving and would be separating them from each other.

[367] And they succeeded in doing that.

[368] Julie, they put a brick in a stocking and bashed her mom in the head on a walk and then ran out into the street and kind of got attention.

[369] And they were hoping it would be seen as an accident that they could write off and then they could be together and run to Hollywood and become these famous movie actresses because, again, they are teenagers, but they legitimately murdered her mom.

[370] So what ended up happening is that both of them were found guilty.

[371] They both served a five -year sentence, but a condition of their release was that they were ordered to never be in contact with each other again, which seems like something I definitely want to talk about.

[372] It seems almost impossible.

[373] I know, but it's in a weird way.

[374] The reason this movie comes across to me is like so romantic.

[375] And it does stick to the real story pretty closely, even though Juliet has since said that they didn't have a sexual relationship and that was definitely part of the movie.

[376] But what really gets to me about this and what I thought matched with our theme really well is that it's not just a true crime.

[377] It's a true crime about a romantic relationship in a different way.

[378] Sure.

[379] It's not purely sexual.

[380] It's not purely, you know, it's not a purely sexual relationship, but it's still a very deeply romantic relationship.

[381] And it's based in the kind of frenzy that a lot of us feel as young women when we're forming friendships.

[382] You know, some of them are very romantic, even again, if they never become sexual.

[383] So I think that there is something to be said about the fact that they get together, but then also how they bond is very interesting.

[384] because this is, again, 1950s, Christchurch, New Zealand, all -girls school.

[385] They're both kind of precocious in different ways.

[386] And I think that Pauline is a little more insular with her precociousness.

[387] And Juliet's very outspoken.

[388] Which I feel like has to do with class.

[389] But that's just to me. Completely.

[390] Well, because it is a very class.

[391] This movie is a class -based movie.

[392] You've got Juliet and her grand mansion and her, you know, swaning around the fields with her long dresses.

[393] And then you've got Pauline living in the middle of the city with her family.

[394] and they run a boarding house to make ends meet.

[395] And her dad works as like a fishmonger.

[396] So it is very classed as well, for sure.

[397] But there was something about not just the frenzy.

[398] So they kind of bond over this idea or the knowledge that they're both sick.

[399] So they're both sitting out in gym class and are asking each other why.

[400] And basically, Juliet has struggled with tuberculosis.

[401] Pauline has struggled with osteomyelitis, which is like a bone sickness.

[402] And one of the best lines in this movie.

[403] Oh, yeah.

[404] So we've got, first of all, it's the, actresses are incredible.

[405] You've got Melanie Linsky, very young, but like clearly showing some of the incredible range that she has to this day.

[406] And this was Kate Winslet's first movie.

[407] She'd done television before this, but never done film.

[408] So we've got these kind of ingenues, you know, and they're kind of, so they're bonding over this sickness connection that they have.

[409] And they're kind of, they're sitting on this bench and Kate Winslet says after they discover what each of their illnesses are.

[410] Kate Winslet says, All the best people have bad chests and bone diseases.

[411] Which is just such an incredible way to think about drawing power from your biggest flaw.

[412] That would definitely be on some Instagram quote.

[413] That is for sure hilarious to me that they bond in this way and then they take off.

[414] They're just inseparable from day one.

[415] So there's a frenzy to this, but there's also such an incredible fantasy life.

[416] And they're very childlike in this way, where their fantasy life with each other is built in, you know, this world where Mario Lanzas serenading them.

[417] Mario Lanzah.

[418] Oh, people.

[419] I got to tell you, like, like, it's so funny because I'm like, I, it's this weird moment, like, where you watch, like, 40s, usually 40s and 50s movies, like pre -rock and roll almost where you're like, oh, people fucked with Mario Lanzza, like, teenagers were.

[420] crazy for Mario Lanzah.

[421] There's a lot of rending of garments.

[422] Yeah.

[423] Like, they're, like, running around town, like kissing posters of Mario Lonson.

[424] I'm kind of like, damn, that is fucking crazy.

[425] He's just a normal dude.

[426] Like, he just looks like a normal guy.

[427] Listen, no disrespect to Mr. Lanzah, but, like, his move, like, we play, you know, I've seen a lot of his films in the past, and it's like a lot of like, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, and I'm like, wow, it's a lot.

[428] Like, if you have to watch more than one in a row, it's a lot.

[429] But they loved it.

[430] They were sprung.

[431] They were sprung on it.

[432] Like running through the woods, tearing their clothes off sprung.

[433] And so there is, like, there is, again, this connection in both of these films to this, like, this idea of being possessive of each other versus being possessed by each other.

[434] Sure.

[435] And there's definitely this moment in heavenly creatures that goes from, you know, we're together.

[436] Everything is great.

[437] We have this, we've created this entire fantasy world together.

[438] We can exist outside of the boundaries of what we know.

[439] And then they're torn apart and it becomes very quickly goes from I want to die to I want to kill.

[440] Wow.

[441] And that is interesting to me. Well, okay.

[442] So the whole idea is that they're just sort of like obsessed with being around each other.

[443] And it becomes clear.

[444] Like there's a part of the film where Kate Winslet's character, because here's the other thing that I found really heartbreaking about the two of them is because they absolutely trauma bonded because of their sicknesses, right?

[445] And Kate Winslow's character in particular, I think because she was rich and had rich parents, they were the types that were like, you're sick, we're going to send you away to like a tropical environment so you can get over your whatever.

[446] And then rule just leave you there.

[447] They kept saying that, like, well, we're just going to, like, it's good for your health.

[448] It's good for your health.

[449] It's good for your health.

[450] And it's like, well, being a negligent parent is not good for my health.

[451] So let's start at the foundation of that.

[452] And I know that that was a thing a lot more than it is now.

[453] I mean, now you can't even imagine that kind of stuff.

[454] It's like, but, you know, back in the days where, like, you had tuberculosis like that where they're like, you're going to an asylum and we're leaving you there, like, until, for months, until you get better.

[455] So she was like, that fucked her out.

[456] She was very lonely.

[457] She was lonely.

[458] And I think that's why, and the two of them being sick like that I think is what caused them to over -invest in each other.

[459] Right.

[460] So they get to the point where Kate Winslet's character actually does get TB.

[461] and essentially needs to recover and there's this whole chain of events where her father has to walk away from his job and then they get divorced and basically she's like you're gonna like the families that you're moving to South Africa because you need to get for your health but also we don't want to deal with you well and also by that point it was very much the parents had stepped in and were like this friendship is too much oh yeah by that time the parents were like they are lesbians we need to handle it in the 1950s way that we handle lesbians.

[462] Which is like you're going to Africa.

[463] Yeah.

[464] Like I'm sending this white girl to Africa is how they dealt with being a lesbian.

[465] We will eventually give you electroshock treatment because we think that homosexuality is a disease.

[466] But the parents were kind of the catalyst for the kind of extreme trauma coming to the surface, I think, which is that they were fine when they were together.

[467] It was hard for Pauline when Juliet was gone getting this treatment for tuberculosis for a few months, but they still had a friendship.

[468] They were writing letters.

[469] They still had their fantasy life.

[470] So it was a threat of being permanently dislodged from each other that brought this kind of madness to the surface, more for Pauline than it did for Juliet.

[471] Juliet was very upset, but Pauline was instantly just like, the way through this is to kill my mom because she's the obstacle here.

[472] Right, because the parenting styles, I feel like, are different.

[473] Also, maybe class -based, but it's that, you know, you know, the Kate Winslet character's parents are like, you'd do whatever the fuck you want.

[474] In fact, we don't even want to see you.

[475] We're sending you away to other countries.

[476] Whereas Melanie Nolenski's parents were like hardcore, I want to know where you are at all times.

[477] Like, you know, you live in our house.

[478] She couldn't even get a passport because they wouldn't sign for it.

[479] She was really stuck.

[480] So I think that it made sense to me that she would go to this murder place.

[481] She felt like the mom was too overbearing and, you know, she was brooding.

[482] I think she was normally, I think, in her real life she was brooding because you said that you saw the real life photographs of her and she looked pissed off.

[483] Yeah, it's kind of incredible.

[484] The attention to detail in this movie is fantastic because there is a photo of Pauline Parker, a school photo where everyone's kind of, you know, looking at the camera and smiling in their school uniforms and she is like arms crossed, head down, hair frizz, scowling.

[485] Like she is not here for any part of it.

[486] And they got that so right.

[487] And I think, you know, Kate Winslet obviously went on to have this incredibly huge Oscar -winning career.

[488] But Melanie Linsky is incredible in this movie.

[489] Pauline's my girl.

[490] Let's get serious.

[491] I did like a dark -haired, frizzy -ass, moppy head of hair, and then the photo where she just like the whole school's looking up, and she's like, boom, like look down the ground.

[492] She's like, that's a girl off to my own heart.

[493] I love it.

[494] I love it.

[495] And the movie starts that way.

[496] Everyone's singing, you know, closer walk with thee and singing their songs, and she's just like staring.

[497] Oh, yeah, she's the goth one for sure.

[498] I love it.

[499] But I think there is something to be said about the fear of, you know, female sexuality in this movie and the fear of, you know, women coming together.

[500] And young girls especially, people freak out when young girls figure out their emotional life.

[501] Yeah.

[502] And this movie was, again, because it's directed by a dude by Peter Jackson, was even more impressive to me for that.

[503] I think so, too, actually.

[504] I mean, not to say that I don't think.

[505] Peter Jackson is a sensitive person or would understand the nuance of women, but I think that he really nailed it.

[506] Like, he really figured out a way to communicate their kind of mutual obsession with each other without making it some weird, like, sexy, teen lesbian thing.

[507] You know what I mean?

[508] I just feel like...

[509] Like, not another teen lesbian movie style of comedy.

[510] Well, you know, it's like a man telling a story of these two women, I think, could be certainly go in that direction and has, but he really did a great job.

[511] Yeah.

[512] There's so much tenderness there.

[513] And I think that the, because maybe part of it is that the murder is such a small facet of the movie, that it's really about building up the fantasy.

[514] And it's really about building up what world they were living.

[515] And I thought he tapped into that really well.

[516] Yeah.

[517] And they were doing this thing where they were kind of like writing this story throughout the film.

[518] Like, you know, they were obviously very interested in like writing and literature and history.

[519] And then they were kind of like acting.

[520] out the relationship between their two characters in their story, which is like a man and a woman.

[521] And they were kind of like pretending to be the couple and kind of, you know, working that out for themselves, which I thought was really interesting.

[522] It was like OG fan fiction about each other.

[523] Yeah.

[524] Like they were the actors in their own fan fiction or something.

[525] It was kind of amazing.

[526] Yeah.

[527] It was pretty cool.

[528] And it's definitely, I don't know, I think as far as true crime goes, we need more true crime movies about women who kill independent of men.

[529] Yeah.

[530] And we also need more in -depth looks at stuff.

[531] I mean, I remember being a teenager and feeling like I could have committed a murder when I was a teenager.

[532] Yeah.

[533] I could have had a list.

[534] If any one of the kids in the hall had been like, you should kill that.

[535] I'd be like, Dave Bowler, you got it.

[536] Yeah, you're so keyed up at that age, you know what I mean?

[537] And it's like, and also too, like I remember, like, I didn't, so I saw that this movie before we were recording, I had seen, maybe when I was in college and it holds up so well and it's such a fucking good movie and I was like really surprised because I you know it's hidden differently now that I'm adults you know what I'm like oh yeah this is different like when I had watched this when I was a kid I would have been like oh my God like this is my life nobody can ever tell me what to do I know it's like yeah of course they did of course they did all this stuff and you know they're not she's not getting on that ship I gotta do something about this but you know now I'm like I'm just I appreciate that it is like a glimpse into that type of relationship that beavered you know like your friends or everything when you're that age I mean any point of connection matters more than any point of connection matters yeah absolutely I'm so glad you picked that movie that's such a good I know I think this was a good this is a good mix it's like different types of romance different types of obsession and obsessiveness but, like, definitely true crime.

[538] People I heard doing some crimes.

[539] They are doing those true crimes.

[540] Leaving some leather gloves, murdering people with a brick.

[541] Also, please tell me, what was the caliber of the panty hose that they had back then, that they could put a brick in it?

[542] Because if I look at a pair of panty hose right now, I get a run.

[543] Yeah.

[544] I was thinking that, too.

[545] I was like, that's some hardcore, like, post -World War II panty hose, and that's some shit.

[546] It's like some pure silk and, like, I don't know.

[547] Didn't come from the eggs in this market.

[548] There was no legs.

[549] eggs, pantyhose.

[550] This was like the hardcore stuff that like they, you know, when the war happens, like they ran out of or something because they make ships out of it or some shit.

[551] I don't know.

[552] I don't know history, folks.

[553] So that's, you're going to have to Google that.

[554] But no matter what, don't hold me to this panty hose thing.

[555] Spang should be on this tip.

[556] Like, Spank should be advertising with a brick inside of a pair of.

[557] I buy them in a heartbeat.

[558] Exactly.

[559] And as always, you know, if you want to talk to us about your favorite, your crime films or any film really you can email us i saw what you did pot at gmail dot com and love to hear from you we will read it and we will recommend that you do not kill your mother we will recommend that you don't kill anyone that's right so we've got a little time at the end where we'd like to kind of throw in a third section it's always going to kind of rotate so one week we're going to probably have some audience participation moments so you know for example if you have questions about movies if you just have things that you want to talk about, if you want to talk about, you know, Robert Redford's chest hair, by all means, you should email us.

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[564] So what we're going to talk about right now is something that is like really so i have to get back to like my mom was doing the other night and my parents famously have no taste in movies but my mom is suddenly like been watching a lot of horror you know my mom's older lady like you know close to 70 and all of a sudden i come in the room and she's watching it chapter 2 and i'm like what are you talking about um she's never seen it one she doesn't even know anything by Stephen king so i'm a little confused by this and i just was like sitting there thinking I almost texted you, Danielle, because I was like, what is up with, like, older women getting into horror movies?

[565] And it was something that I wanted to ask you because your grandma is, like, famously into horror.

[566] And I was hoping you could, like, tell people about that because it's awesome.

[567] She is.

[568] She's a known maniac.

[569] She, I think there is some kind of connection between the frustration women must feel and must have felt throughout.

[570] the decades and not having outlets for those feelings.

[571] So just watching people get murked kind of became like the thing that made them feel good.

[572] And my own theories about that.

[573] All the years of being repressed now, they just want to see murders happen.

[574] They're like, how about you just kill some people so I can relax?

[575] Can I see one murder so I can go to bed, please?

[576] But there is something to it.

[577] My grandma, well, she's told me that, you know, she's loved horror films and she was a little kid and she always loved, you know, like the creature from the Black Lagoon and kind of all the old school ones.

[578] But it has intensified as she's gotten older.

[579] You would think that it would be something that kind of hits a peak.

[580] But my grandma has seen audition.

[581] I have not seen audition.

[582] Oh my God.

[583] She watches the Walking Dead every Sunday when it's on, like the new seasons are on.

[584] She has Walking Dead t -shirts.

[585] she has her whole arsenal of movies in her house are all horror films and she just she loves it and she and the thing that is the most bizarre is that she laughs her ass off at them she delights in horror movies and so I occasionally reach out and kind of ask her you know some thoughts about that and we're lucky enough that you recorded some of it yeah I still I mean we we still talk about it routinely and I will occasionally come through with some recordings of my grandma.

[586] This one is from a few years ago where I basically was just having a conversation with her about why horror, why and why use it as a tool of instruction for children.

[587] Why did you raise us with horror movie?

[588] Will you play that right now, please?

[589] Yes, let's listen to my grandma's input on these films.

[590] Do you remember making me watch Halloween?

[591] Yeah.

[592] That was good.

[593] It was not good.

[594] It was scary.

[595] And I used to tell you, kids, this is just a movie.

[596] You think I understood that when that was five years old?

[597] I don't care.

[598] If I was going to watch it, you were going to watch it.

[599] And you all were terrible.

[600] Yeah, we were your booker.

[601] You were cracking up right now saying how terrified we were as kids to watch horror movies.

[602] My kids grew up on that Bobby today.

[603] He loved so.

[604] Wait, you're telling me that having kids watch horror movies is a great tool of parenting.

[605] It certainly is.

[606] It'll make them think first about doing a lot of things they want to do because they think of that picture.

[607] What's in it?

[608] Yeah, that makes you think about walking in the woods, going home by yourself.

[609] Did the mama tell you to walk in those woods?

[610] No, get the hell out of those clubs.

[611] I can't help me. Kids watch horror movies.

[612] It's a good tool of training.

[613] It certainly is.

[614] Make you think.

[615] Oh, my God.

[616] Grave, there's something wrong with you.

[617] Uh -uh.

[618] It's just like those horror movies that show never these crazy men, women running.

[619] They always show women jogging by themselves in the park on Pass.

[620] Pass, and you don't know who's standing here or there.

[621] That's why so many.

[622] a shame.

[623] It's a damn shame.

[624] It's your body, nobody should touch with you and who you want.

[625] You understand?

[626] But right now, you read about in the paper, some woman got raped here or there.

[627] What the hell is around her?

[628] Look at a horror movie.

[629] I bet you'd carry a knife with her.

[630] Everywhere you go, carry a little secret knife right there.

[631] And it's on the cut his throat.

[632] Take it.

[633] taking something that's yours.

[634] No, I'm telling you, sometimes it helps.

[635] So, but the thing is, is like, women shouldn't feel that they have to run with knives.

[636] I don't care.

[637] I don't care.

[638] I don't care.

[639] That's not the world today.

[640] What you think they should do or shouldn't do, that's not the world today.

[641] Carry a knife, cut his throat.

[642] Let him think about being cut up before he even put his, saying it's all on you.

[643] I'm not kidding.

[644] Grab a knife, cut his throat.

[645] I mean, it's like I, that means to be on a T -shirt, just general, in general.

[646] But like, I, yeah, I love your grandma.

[647] I was raised by her.

[648] Let's just make sure that that is part of the conversation.

[649] This is the person who raised me. And this is the advice she gave me, regularly.

[650] I mean, you can't ask for anything better than that, truly.

[651] You truly can't.

[652] I mean, it's like she's so, like, I love that she's just so emphatic about, you know, her beliefs and not taking any shit.

[653] And she's not wrong.

[654] She's not wrong.

[655] She raised, she wanted to raise the kind of woman who would take no shit and would not be fearful in this world.

[656] And she succeeded in that.

[657] But she did it in the weirdest fucking way possible.

[658] Thank you, Daniel's grandma, from making Daniel.

[659] But promise me you have more clips that we'll do this every so often.

[660] And you'll have like other grandma's nuggets of wisdom to bring horror wise or not.

[661] I just want to hear her more.

[662] So I definitely have, I have some recordings and I will continue to record her with her permission.

[663] But yeah, she comes up with this stuff all day, every day.

[664] Last week, she was telling us that she wanted, I was FaceTiming with my brother.

[665] And she told us she wanted a full sleep tattoo.

[666] So it just never ends.

[667] It never ends.

[668] And I will catch as much of it as possible.

[669] May we all try to get on your grandma's level?

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