211 - It Was My Birthday, Forensic Files!

[0] This is exactly right.

[1] I'm welcome.

[2] Welcome to my favorite murder.

[3] That's Georgia Hard Star.

[4] That's Karen Kilgariff.

[5] It should be clear.

[6] Everything's the same and everything's different right now with this week.

[7] Yes.

[8] Name five examples of which one.

[9] Different?

[10] Whatever you're talking about.

[11] Well, for example.

[12] First of all.

[13] Oh, well, for example, I can't name something.

[14] We're living in a world now.

[15] This is different.

[16] We're new episodes of Forensic Files.

[17] This sounds like a commercial, but it's not.

[18] Right.

[19] This is just from the heart.

[20] It's from the heart.

[21] This is going straight out to you from us.

[22] That's right.

[23] Forensic Files 2.

[24] Electric Bugaloo is out now on HLN.

[25] That's right.

[26] We are not being paid to do this.

[27] We are not.

[28] We should.

[29] No, we have been paid to do it.

[30] We've done commercials.

[31] We have, but we also, we're living it.

[32] As they should pay us.

[33] I mean.

[34] We're like Kendall Jenner and Pepsi.

[35] We're just living it.

[36] We're not just talking about it.

[37] Yeah.

[38] We are, we are aspirational.

[39] television watchers did you see it yeah how was it it's good I think they cut they trim some fat from like the which I like I love fat oh you do oh yeah in a good way though where it's not like they take you for you know granted nobody likes when forensic files takes you for granted it was my birthday forensic files you got shit all over it how dare you how dare you ruin another birthday.

[40] You said it'd be different this time around.

[41] You said it would be different to you had no examples of how different it was going to be.

[42] He said it to be electric and there'd be a boogaloo.

[43] And there's neither.

[44] Wow.

[45] We're off to a start.

[46] So kind of more concise?

[47] Yeah.

[48] I'll say that.

[49] All right.

[50] Confidently.

[51] But still doing the same thing like when I go to bed tonight, I can throw that on.

[52] Absolutely.

[53] And just be rocked to sleep.

[54] I felt weird watching it on the couch because I feel like I usually watch it in the hotel room.

[55] In a nice, big, fat bed.

[56] Yeah.

[57] And I was almost like, maybe we should get a, I'm really anti -TV and bedroom.

[58] And I was like, maybe we do need one just to watch Forensic Files.

[59] I wonder if that's because you read the same feng shui book I did in like 2008.

[60] No, it just makes me sad.

[61] Oh, okay.

[62] Yeah.

[63] Too hospitally?

[64] Too, like, dating a guy with a mattress on the floor.

[65] And we have to watch it in his room because his roommates are out, or he lives with his parents, let's say.

[66] Sure.

[67] You know, it's that scene.

[68] He's constantly going, turn it down.

[69] My dad's going to get mad.

[70] Right.

[71] Or he then turns it too loud and falls asleep.

[72] But then if you try to turn it off, he's like, oh, is he watching that.

[73] You woke me up.

[74] Yeah.

[75] That, for some reason, reminds me of the one time in my terrible 20s.

[76] Still drinking, so I must, I was under 27, and I would guess I was 25.

[77] Okay.

[78] I had a party at my house.

[79] Terrible.

[80] Terrible time to be alive.

[81] Really difficult, especially when you're taking speed.

[82] Everything's going.

[83] too fast and I we had a party in my house and I was so kind of wired that I couldn't really get anything done like I remember just going in and putting on mascara for literally an hour like I couldn't I couldn't do forward motion you couldn't do next step no I was like caught up very nervous very like who's going to come and I was excited because this person was going to be there and when I went to clean my room which was like the last thing I did I just picked up all the clothes on the floor which there were plenty because I had a shopping addiction at the time to replace my food addiction that had been supplemented by my speed addiction.

[84] You got to supplement.

[85] You're okay.

[86] Right.

[87] If you're not working on one actively, move on to the other ones.

[88] There's plenty of substances to abuse.

[89] I took all the clothes on my floor, threw them in the closet, and it made a stack that was literally four feet high of a solid mass of clothes.

[90] And then I just shut the door.

[91] It all smelled like cigarettes, too.

[92] I imagine everything that sounds like cigarettes.

[93] Everything smelled like cigarettes.

[94] Yeah, or cloves.

[95] It was like mid -90s.

[96] It was everything smelled like nirvana and depression and kind of commercialized depression.

[97] So at one point during the party, everyone was in my room and I was like, this is the life.

[98] I'm so popular like having, literally there's like acoustic guitar guy playing the guitar on the floor.

[99] My friend Danny, Sabios, shout out, Wisconsin.

[100] And my friend Laura Milligan gets up to fucking leave and she opens the closet door.

[101] she had hidden her purse in my closet even though it was a party filled with people she knew personally I'm there she threw her purse in my closet so in front of everyone opens the closet door to the wall of laundry picks up her purse off the top of it and then it's like bye I'll talk to you here and I was just like sitting there like I'm gonna kill you it was so hilarious and humiliating what did their rooms look like those people there true that's what made me think of it it was like such a that time is such a time of undone laundry Yeah, which is the grossest way to live.

[102] I'm still there because I think my garage is haunted and I don't like going in there.

[103] So I'm just kind of like, I'll do laundry when Vince gets home because I don't want to go in there.

[104] Yeah, that's, well, garages are kind of creepy and dark.

[105] Do you not have good lighting out there?

[106] No, it's an old, like, original L .A. grandma, like, it hasn't been touched since the 40s except by, like, motor oil.

[107] And, like, every kind of paint that's ever been used in the house since the 1940s is, in there.

[108] In its bucket, right?

[109] And it says, like, what room it was, it's just like, it's scary.

[110] Yes.

[111] It's ancient.

[112] It's ancient.

[113] I guess, I guess you can fix stuff like that.

[114] I don't know.

[115] I mean, we could go over there and we can put up some posters, black light posters.

[116] Yep.

[117] Do you want to get that thing of the thing you're flipping a double bird?

[118] It'll be our hangout.

[119] Come on, let's hang out in the garage.

[120] We're going to turn it into your she shed.

[121] Vins and I will do garage beer.

[122] sometimes and it's pretty legit.

[123] That's fun.

[124] We open the garage.

[125] He bought us both camping chairs and we just sit out there and you got a refrigerator for the garage, which is something homeownerers do that I had never experienced.

[126] And we just sit and drink MGD and like the neighbors walk by and they're like, they must be Airbnb because these people better not live in our neighborhood.

[127] And we're like, what's up?

[128] Garage beers is really making my heart grow three times larger.

[129] Garage beers.

[130] That's called relationship goals right there.

[131] Hell yes.

[132] And we have a perfectly nice deck with a view.

[133] And we sit in the fucking methial, fucking cobweb spider webs everywhere.

[134] Yes.

[135] You're making it your own.

[136] Trash.

[137] There's trash.

[138] It's for a truck.

[139] Okay.

[140] Did you ever watch the show?

[141] I think it was, what was the one where everyone confronts people about their addictions?

[142] Oh.

[143] Intervention.

[144] Yeah, yeah.

[145] Oh, I was obsessed.

[146] Did you ever see the one, the lady that was addicted to pills and she would sit in the garage in her house?

[147] smoking, chain smoking because she wasn't allowed to sit inside the house.

[148] So why even come in the house?

[149] So just stay out there?

[150] So literally she was only ever out sitting in this lawn chair in the garage and her children would come out to talk to her and her one son was like super like kind of weepy all the time just because his mom was never inside the house and they finally got her to go to rehab.

[151] Yes.

[152] The thing I don't, yeah.

[153] That's one of those things.

[154] It's such a good show and it's that thing where that's how it is especially these days.

[155] days with pills, and as we've all learned with the fucking oxycontin, like, deluge on this country, it's so easy to get pills and to live in a pill world.

[156] And to be like, they're prescribed to me. Yes.

[157] You know, like, I'm allowed to take these, which I get.

[158] I have fucking crazy back pain.

[159] Sure.

[160] And also, you need solutions for immediate, awful problems.

[161] And then when they turn into other problems, you just start adapting.

[162] Like, she was, I identified with her so much of, like, I just need to do this one thing.

[163] And then she couldn't get out of that chair.

[164] It's, yeah.

[165] Garage beers is the polar opposite.

[166] You guys are doing the opposite energy.

[167] That's right.

[168] Sorry, I brought it up.

[169] No, it's good.

[170] Speaking of, I don't know, clothes.

[171] Close.

[172] In your closet.

[173] They put your closet.

[174] That's right.

[175] That smell like cigarettes.

[176] Sure.

[177] We're having a 50 % off lots of merch sale.

[178] Because it all smells like cigarettes.

[179] Yeah.

[180] We accidentally smoke.

[181] in the warehouse.

[182] But there's just like a shit and it's like there's shirts that are 15 bucks.

[183] There's like everything's on like a lot of great stuff's on sale.

[184] Perfect.

[185] At my favorite murder .com just go to the shop.

[186] Go there and get this stuff and then we'll make new stuff and you can have other stuff and it'll be a continuous cycle.

[187] It's to make room for new merch that we're going to create.

[188] Yeah.

[189] Which is exciting.

[190] So that's if you feel like that doing that, do it.

[191] If not, you know, it's your world.

[192] Hey, man. Hey man. It's chill.

[193] Peace.

[194] Or whatever.

[195] Peace.

[196] and stuff.

[197] I have this tweet here from a listener named Chelsea Sanders at Callie Blair on Twitter.

[198] She wrote in My Favorite Murder, I made Stevens Mug.

[199] Oh!

[200] I'm using it again.

[201] The Jody...

[202] Mr. Jody Arias mug.

[203] I was appearing on Mother May I Sleep with Podcast and I wanted to bring gifts.

[204] It's a straight up Sharpie.

[205] It is straight up Sharpie, but then baked, so it'll last.

[206] Amazing.

[207] Glad it made its way over to exactly right.

[208] And Karen Kilgariff.

[209] Oh, and then here's a follow -up tweet.

[210] Also, on a weird coincidence, I was also an extra in sleepover, like Georgia Heart Stark, which I mentioned in my episode of Mother May I Sleep with the podcast.

[211] So, that's your new best friend.

[212] Say your name again?

[213] Chelsea.

[214] At Kelly Blair.

[215] Thanks, Callie Blair.

[216] I love that we found the person who made this with a sharpie.

[217] Great design.

[218] Good job.

[219] What else?

[220] Lots of people telling me about the musical.

[221] Right.

[222] Jesus fucking crap.

[223] Thank you guys.

[224] Great.

[225] Thank you.

[226] Check the comments.

[227] We love to know this information.

[228] Once.

[229] I love to know it 15 ,000.

[230] There's a musical called Parade.

[231] It's beautiful.

[232] There's songs in it.

[233] It's about Leo Frank's death and about Mary Fagin's murder.

[234] Yeah.

[235] And Leo Frank's murder.

[236] And I guess now we have to, they have to restage it on Broadway.

[237] We need to go see it.

[238] But people were, the people who wrote in who clearly are musical errinos, really raved about how beautiful the music is.

[239] I want to see it.

[240] I'll see it.

[241] I swear.

[242] And then many other people for the follow -up, a pencil passion.

[243] Oh, yeah.

[244] Reminded me that Blackwing pencils are the best there are, and I do have some.

[245] Wow.

[246] I just couldn't remember the name while we were talking about them.

[247] This is a world that I didn't know about.

[248] Like, that was a thing.

[249] If you would ask me what kind of pencil I'd like, I'd say number two.

[250] Right.

[251] I don't, there's no mechanical.

[252] I like mechanical pencil.

[253] You know, mechanical is a great choice, though.

[254] Yeah.

[255] Because you don't need a sharpener.

[256] Yeah.

[257] And if you throw a lot of stuff in your purse, if it breaks, you just have a new pencil.

[258] Yeah.

[259] That's the best.

[260] I love it.

[261] Mechanics have it right.

[262] And you're a mechanic at heart.

[263] That's right.

[264] Oh, and also just we announced last week that our friend and co -worker, Bridger, Wyniger, his new podcast, I said no gifts.

[265] GIF, you guys, it sounds like we're saying gifts, like GIF, but it's gifts.

[266] Yeah, no one talks like that, though.

[267] So if you can't put together the sentence, I said no gifts and not know that the word we're saying is not gifts.

[268] I said no gifts.

[269] Yeah.

[270] Stop it.

[271] For a vocal podcast.

[272] Stop being fucking 19, please.

[273] As a favorite me. Okay.

[274] Your favorite 68 year old.

[275] I said no gift.

[276] The trailer is up on iTunes and everywhere you find your podcasts and you can listen to a sample of it and go subscribe.

[277] And let's get those numbers.

[278] up apparently numbers are the big thing on the iTunes charts it's all about the numbers no so let's play the numbers game everybody we're not all about math like that's not our thing no just the pencils yeah so we're not even paying attention no we're more about spirituality yeah spiritual numbers let's get those up i'm i'm a 10 spiritually i'm a diamond spiritually crystal I'm a crystal I'm platinum card member Buddhist That's all on my list Is that it?

[279] I think so My therapist has a podcast now Don't know how to do with that No you have to go to a second therapist About the first therapist podcast Exactly Is that real?

[280] Yeah and it's good I mean it's yeah It's called your mental breakdown And it's good Check it out Just a brave endorsement It's just weird I don't know if it's like if it's like against protocol for me to plug something that my therapist does out.

[281] She keeps giving examples.

[282] She's like, I have this one girl brown hair in her mid to late 30s.

[283] Oh, she.

[284] Well, it's mine and Vince's therapist, so that's like a different thing, right?

[285] Because it's mostly his fault.

[286] Yeah, I get it.

[287] I'm on the side.

[288] 100%.

[289] We have therapy in our garage.

[290] How great with that?

[291] the she comes to the garage it's he i don't but i don't but it doesn't matter so i don't know why how to correct you in that well because they if they're looking for his podcast they should know right yeah okay yeah that's smart that's it okay your mental breakdown it's actually they it's okay it's a therapy session it's like a they they do a therapy session with this person who's anonymous and then they discuss it and it's like that's cool it's cool and it's like interesting and you can relate even though the the dude having his therapy lesson session is 24 year old guy you can still relate to a lot of the stuff and it's also good for people who don't know what therapy is like it and are kind of nervous yes it's a nice that for sure yeah and the therapist I go to Doug is really fucking good so it's like nice to listen to how how it's supposed to work kind of in some cases now you should start a therapy practice and just be like oh here really quick I want to give you my business yeah can you plug my therapy practice on your podcast to your other clients.

[292] I just wanted to get into your career path now.

[293] You know, you know how it is.

[294] Wait, how was your trip?

[295] To New Orleans?

[296] Yes.

[297] Your mistaken trip.

[298] I just got dates mixed up and so instead of going to New Orleans for my friend, lovely Carrie, Cassidy Vintage's fucking 40th birthday celebration with a bunch of friends at an Airbnb in New Orleans, Vince and I went two weeks later on our own.

[299] And she actually made the ticket reservation.

[300] Incorrectly.

[301] We were there for Marty Grawn.

[302] We had a great time just for two days.

[303] And I met, of course, a fucking lovely murderine.

[304] Murderinos at every location.

[305] And it was really fun.

[306] That's great.

[307] Oh, wait.

[308] Can we talk about my favorite murderino interaction lately?

[309] Yeah.

[310] George and I were in, we were going to some appointment together.

[311] I can't remember what we were doing.

[312] And this girl was coming out.

[313] We were in the parking garage.

[314] we were walking into the building and this girl was coming out and she was on crutches.

[315] And she looked at us and went, oh, oh, you know what?

[316] Fuck you.

[317] And I start laughing because her first initial look on her face was clearly like, oh, you guys are here.

[318] And then she just started yelling at us for being there and that she was just listening to us and fuck us.

[319] It was almost like it was like a fuck you to the universe and like, you can't trick me. Fuck you.

[320] It was good.

[321] She kept going.

[322] Hilarious.

[323] She didn't stop to talk us.

[324] No, no, no. She was like hobbling away.

[325] She had like a cast on.

[326] Oh, it was delightful.

[327] So shout out to her.

[328] She told us her name and now I can't remember.

[329] But you're number one.

[330] And I hope you're whatever's wrong with you gets well soon.

[331] I hope you're happy.

[332] Fuck you.

[333] Keep fucking walking.

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[335] Absolutely.

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[353] Goodbye.

[354] This is a story I got from a Instagram account called History Photographed, and they post like a historical photograph and then tell you about the story.

[355] And I had never heard this before and I was into it.

[356] That sounds like a good way to learn.

[357] It is.

[358] It totally is.

[359] Go buy the things that don't catch your eye.

[360] Yeah.

[361] Then when you're like, what's this?

[362] Yeah.

[363] My Instagram feed is all history photographs and cats and dogs and some penguins and like random shit now.

[364] It's pretty enjoyable.

[365] If this is a story about a cat, a dog, and a penguin going on an adventure in 1918, I will fucking kill you.

[366] Oh, fuck you!

[367] I love this story.

[368] Oh, fuck.

[369] I don't have a story this week.

[370] Papers, wrestling.

[371] I forgot to, uh...

[372] Okay, no, this is the hijacking of Pan Am Flight 73 and the heroin of hijacking.

[373] Wow.

[374] Yeah.

[375] Wait, can I just ask one off mic question?

[376] Always.

[377] On the mic only.

[378] is there shooting in the plane on this one yeah i was fucking gonna do this no yes i was i had i actually think i asked jay to start researching it are you serious because it's so fucking good it's the one from 1986 i think that's it okay okay you tell me right yes there's no you tell me no you fucking tell me with this right i wish you would tell me we're acting like there's two hijacking stories you did one already and now here's the second here's the second one i grabbed it if only i mugged jay and took his other hijacking story.

[379] This, I got article or info from a BBC article by a Megam Mohan, an article from the website called View from the Wing by Gary Leff, a medium article by Carthick Nombie and Wikipedia.

[380] So, Karen, a lot was going in in 1986.

[381] True.

[382] You were there.

[383] I was there.

[384] Sophomore year, baby.

[385] Okay.

[386] It was my prime.

[387] I was six years old.

[388] I know.

[389] So I don't really remember this a lot, but you probably do.

[390] So please tell me about it if you want to jump in at any point.

[391] Oh, yeah, you have no choice.

[392] I'm all about jumping in.

[393] Yeah.

[394] So let me tell you some shit about 1996 on January 28th, the 73 seconds after launching space shuttle challenger disintegrated.

[395] Horrifying.

[396] In the middle of the fucking air, killing the entire crew.

[397] Sally Ride was on that.

[398] That's right.

[399] Yeah.

[400] On April 26th, one of the reactors at Chernobyl, nuclear plant.

[401] in the Ukraine explodes, creating the world's worst nuclear disaster.

[402] I can't watch the movie Chernobyl because we kind of sat there while it happened, hoping it wasn't as, like, hoping it wasn't worse than they were saying.

[403] It was such a strange, awful, like the whole nuclear threat.

[404] It was terrifying at the time.

[405] It was terrifying.

[406] Yeah.

[407] Would you go to Chernobyl if you had a chance to get like a. No, no, no. Oh, yeah, I don't like cancer.

[408] Me personally?

[409] I'm not one of those run for cancer I think I'm very anti -cancer Oh Oh, you're gonna take a stance You know what?

[410] Here I go Fuck cancer Okay Of course there's Haley's Comet Fucking Geraldo Rivera Opens Al Capone's secret vault Remember that one?

[411] That's right The Black Hole known as Ronald Reagan Is President And is secretly in the midst Of what will become known As the Iran -Contra affair Yeah Read about it everyone It's important history What?

[412] I don't know any I know the name of it And I know it was bad And there's tons of lying And there's people arming people They shouldn't And nobody gets in trouble for anything Oh, that's all over North stuff Okay I believe Why am I doing this?

[413] Why do I continue after four years To guess and lie?

[414] You mean after 49 years?

[415] It's just how I interact I want people to know I understand them Yeah If I don't You want to be You want to be a part of it I want to be with Yula Okay On April 14th 1986 The United States Launches Airstrikes Against Libya In retaliation for the Libyan sponsorship of terrorism Against American troops And citizens There's a lot of history To unpack there Just unpack it real quick right now How dare you challenge me In the middle of this I would get up and leave Stephen's leaving Shit Stephen Okay Meanwhile, on September 5th, 1986, Pan Am Flight 73 takes off from what is present -day Mumbai, what is then, Bombay, on route to New York.

[416] And there's layovers in Karachi in Pakistan, in Frankfurt, Germany, and the Boeing.

[417] That's four layovers?

[418] No, wait.

[419] Did that ticket cost $102?

[420] And I wonder if there are even layovers at that point where, like, it's just stopping.

[421] Yeah, they can't.

[422] So, like, people who are going from Bombay to New York.

[423] have to stop at all those fucking places.

[424] But it's a time when you can stay on the plane.

[425] Oh, that's good.

[426] And the people depart who are, like, going to these other places and then more people get on.

[427] So it's kind of like a city bus.

[428] But across the world.

[429] So the Boeing 747 lands at the Karachi Airport for refueling at 4 .30 in the morning.

[430] It's carrying 394 passengers, nine infants, an American flight crew, and 13 Indian flight attendants.

[431] a total of 109 passengers to spark dispark disembark at Karachi and new passengers board around 6 a .m. So everyone's fucking doing their thing, getting on, getting off, going to the next, they're ready to go to the next spot.

[432] Yeah.

[433] I don't want to fly for that long.

[434] No. Please don't make me. Yeah.

[435] Suddenly, there's a van that was modified to look like airport security and it's driven by four hijackers.

[436] It gets through a security checkpoint.

[437] and drives right up to one of the boarding stairways to the plane.

[438] And this is when they were on the tarmac, so it's not like you had a board through the tunnel like you do now.

[439] Right.

[440] You just go right up to the plane.

[441] I mean, that's when they would be kind of like, does anyone want to roll by the plane just for shits and gigs before we all leave?

[442] Yeah, exactly.

[443] Shots are fired outside the plane, killing two Kuwait airline staff members working on a nearby aircraft.

[444] And then the four -arm men enter the plane and start shooting.

[445] shooting.

[446] And they've got AK -47s.

[447] They have fucking grenades and shit strapped to them.

[448] I mean, there's no, it's obvious that they're hijackers.

[449] I mean, yeah, and they're shooting.

[450] Yeah.

[451] So, the hijackers fire shots at the feet of a flight attendant and force her to close the plane door.

[452] Oh.

[453] A flight attendant named Shereen Pavon, who was out of sight of the hijackers.

[454] And there might have been a, there's varying reports of everything that's going on here because some people died, some people didn't.

[455] And it's just word of mouth at this point of what exactly happened.

[456] But one of the flight attendants who was out of sight, here's the gunfire, realized it's going on and uses the intercom phone and calls the cockpit to let them know what's going on.

[457] She gives them the hijack code, alerting the crew.

[458] And another flight attendant named Sunshine Vesuwala leads the hijackers.

[459] They say take us to the cockpit.

[460] She leads them there.

[461] and she notices that the overhead escape hatch in the cockpit has been deployed and realizes that the whole crew has gotten out in the cockpit.

[462] So she kind of...

[463] Are you allowed to do that?

[464] Yeah, so about that.

[465] Okay.

[466] So people criticize it.

[467] People say it's a good thing.

[468] There's like differing arguments.

[469] One of the good things about it is that the plane can't then take off, can't be blown up in the air.

[470] They can't force it to take up right.

[471] Exactly.

[472] Like, they're kind of stuck there.

[473] So the situation is.

[474] confined to the airport.

[475] Okay.

[476] You know?

[477] I agree with that.

[478] Yeah.

[479] So them getting out means there's no one to fly the plane and it foils their whole plan.

[480] Okay.

[481] Great.

[482] So I changed my mind.

[483] Okay.

[484] But they had to like get out.

[485] It's one of those huge double -decker plans.

[486] They had to fucking climb out with ropes and shit like that.

[487] And they get out of there.

[488] So this whole thing definitely screws up the hijackers plan because the hijackers are part of the Abu Nidal organization or A -N -O.

[489] It's a Palestinian terrorist organization backed by Libya.

[490] it's defunct now.

[491] And it's opposed to U .S. and Israeli policy in the Middle East.

[492] And they're blamed for a string of attacks in the 1970s and 80s, killing and wounding hundreds of people.

[493] And their plan was to fly to Cyprus where other members of their militant group were incarcerated on terror charges and get them the fuck out of prison.

[494] Okay.

[495] So that's their plan.

[496] And it doesn't work now because they have no pilots.

[497] Right.

[498] So when the lead hijacker called Safarini realizes that the cockpit crew escaped, he's a...

[499] He knows he has to negotiate with officials at that point.

[500] So he orders the first and business class passengers to get back into coach.

[501] And people are like sitting in the aisles.

[502] They're kind of just like confined to these two, this one space with the hijacker, two hijackers on either side of them.

[503] So for nearly 17 hours, the hijackers hold the passengers and crew hostage.

[504] So the first casualty happens around 10 a .m., four hours after they hijacked the plane.

[505] Safferini goes through the plane and finds.

[506] a 29 -year -old Indian -American resident of California.

[507] He'd been recently naturalized as an American citizen.

[508] His name is Rajesh Kumar.

[509] And Safarini orders Kumar to come to the front of the aircraft and to kneel at the front doorway of the aircraft.

[510] Okay.

[511] I think this might be the same hijacking that is the story behind one of the first episodes of I Survived I Ever Saw.

[512] But I'll let you tell the rest.

[513] It's basically just this hijacking story, but I'll tell you later if it is actually that one.

[514] Okay.

[515] Because there's more than three hijacking stories, unfortunately.

[516] And so he has to face the front of the aircraft with his hands and feet, his hands behind his head.

[517] So he's kneeling there with a gun to his head at the front, at the door.

[518] Saffirini tells officials that if a new cockpit crew is not sent on the plane in the next 15 minutes, Kumar will be shot.

[519] So when a pilot doesn't arrive within the hour, Saffirini shoots Kumar in the head and pushes him out of the door onto the tarmac below, which I think I've seen video of.

[520] Is there a video of that?

[521] I don't know.

[522] And if not, then there's other hijackings that it could have been the video of it.

[523] It's stuck with me since I was a kid.

[524] Of course.

[525] So Pakistani personnel on the tarmac report that Kumar is still breathing when he's placed in an ambulance.

[526] They grab him.

[527] He's pronounced dead on the way to the hospital in Karachi.

[528] So outside on the tarmac, Pan Am's Karachi director, Viraf, Doroga, uses a megaphone and tries to negotiate with the hijackers.

[529] He tells them that the authorities are looking for pilots to fly them wherever they need to go, which is true.

[530] They're trying to get, like, people diverted into that, what's it called?

[531] Airport?

[532] Thank you.

[533] To get someone on the plane, but it's just taking too long.

[534] The terrorists then tell the...

[535] People are like, I'm about to land.

[536] Right.

[537] I just need, oh, I don't know.

[538] 36 more hours?

[539] I'm going the wrong way.

[540] So the terrorists tell the flight attendants to collect the passports of all of the people on the plane and the passengers so that they can identify the Americans on board because that's their target.

[541] So the flight attendants who are led by the head of the head of flight attendants, Nierzia Bonnott, so she's in charge of the flight attendants because the pilots left and now she's the most senior cabin crew member.

[542] And she is like, we're going to fucking, we're not, you know, we're, she's like, we're going to do what we were trained to do and we're not going to freak out.

[543] Yes.

[544] So they have plans to foil the hijackers and are ready to risk their lives to save as many passengers as they can.

[545] Ooh, I like this.

[546] Yeah.

[547] So let me tell you about Nyrjah.

[548] She grew up in Bombay, India, in a Punjabi family with her father, mother, and two brothers.

[549] Her family calls her Ladu, which is the Hindu word for sweet and God gifted.

[550] Her dad describes her as very sensitive, deeply affectionate, and extremely decent.

[551] Oh.

[552] At age of 16, she spotted...

[553] Your dad describing you as decent.

[554] I think that he means, like, a decent human thing.

[555] She's okay.

[556] You know, she's decent.

[557] She'll get the job done as a daughter.

[558] At the age of 16, she's spotted by a modeling scout, gets several modeling assignments at ad agency.

[559] She becomes, like, she's a model.

[560] She's fucking so beautiful.

[561] She attends several goods...

[562] She's not one of those weird.

[563] models and it's all personality.

[564] Stop it.

[565] Sorry, sir.

[566] She attends several good schools and eventually graduates from St. Xavier College in Bombay.

[567] So she's super smart.

[568] In March of 1985, she travels to the American Gulf for an arranged marriage, but it's a toxic and abusive marriage and relationship.

[569] She has to borrow money from him just to make phone calls back home.

[570] He's this really awful controlling person.

[571] She gathers all her strength and leaves him and goes back home, which is kind of unheard of at the time.

[572] Yeah.

[573] Yeah, you know.

[574] Leaving an arranged marriage.

[575] Yeah, totally.

[576] She then applies for flight attendant position with Pan Am, who had decided to have an all -Indian cabin crew for its Frankfurt to India routes that year.

[577] And out of 10 ,000 applicants, she's placed within the top 80, and she's selected for training in Miami, Florida.

[578] And she returns to India as a purser, which is what your dad did, right?

[579] Yes, on the cruise.

[580] Yeah.

[581] She carried a lot of luggage?

[582] I don't think so.

[583] I don't know.

[584] It says in here that it's the time.

[585] for the chief flight attendant.

[586] So I think it maybe means something different there.

[587] Yeah, yeah.

[588] And it's considered the most senior crew position.

[589] So I think it's just like she's fucking in charge.

[590] Hell yeah.

[591] It's two days before her 23rd birthday when the plane is hijacked.

[592] 23rd.

[593] She's a little baby.

[594] She's a baby.

[595] And already so accomplished.

[596] Flight attendants collect all the passports.

[597] And then Nierza directs the other attendants to secretly pull out any American passports.

[598] And they fucking hide them.

[599] They like tuck them into seats.

[600] They throw them in the little trash bins and hide them in their clothes and they refuse to give them any American passports.

[601] And they managed to hide 41 passports total.

[602] Ooh, ooh, weird full body chills.

[603] That's crazy.

[604] Isn't it?

[605] Yes.

[606] And it's so, like, risky.

[607] It's really risky and it's really important and it's really brave.

[608] I mean, when it comes down to it, these flight attendants are human beings just like everyone on board.

[609] And yet they're, and they just have a certain job that puts them in this.

[610] position and yet they are willing to sacrifice their lives because of it yeah because they're the ones that have to yeah that's what i they don't have to though they just it's like they have so much integrity that they're willing to yes they know they're the they're the final they're the last line if you're the person that's like well they told me to do it and they have a gun so here it's like but you could also try to think of a plan you could try to do something and they did which is kind of why the pilot's leaving is touchy for me because like they had a authority they had means they you know there could I it's hard I was on that side but the rationale and the reasoning that the plane can't leave if the pilots are gone works for me I couldn't have just thrown the keys out of the escape patch there's the spare keys that are up in the ceiling go grab them I mean it it's basically saying you though it's like taking the engine out where it's like there's nothing we can do 100 % I buy that yes yes I didn't like it in the beginning?

[611] Yeah.

[612] I love it now.

[613] Okay.

[614] So over the next few hours, Nyrja, and the other attendants continue to serve people food and drinks on, like, they're making sure everyone's eating and has drinks, which is like, they're so crazy.

[615] God bless.

[616] You've never tasted a more delicious tiny bottle of doers in your life than when that shit gets served up.

[617] Amen.

[618] What beverage would you?

[619] What beverage would you like, I'll fucking take anything.

[620] Yeah, at that point.

[621] In the evening, the hijackers, who seemed to be like they talk to the passengers.

[622] They don't, I don't think right away kill anyone else.

[623] They spare a couple people's lives as well.

[624] And they allow everyone to go to the toilet one after the other by crawling on the floor on the floor with their hands over their heads.

[625] Not saying the hijackers are good guys.

[626] It's just this weird message they're sending.

[627] At one point, Nierzhe removes a, okay, so here's what she does.

[628] She takes a page out of flight manual that describes procedures for opening the aircraft door.

[629] and she fucking tucks it into a magazine and then is like to a passenger, here's a magazine, right at this magazine?

[630] Here's the page 37.

[631] Here's the magazine you asked for a man with huge biceps.

[632] Right.

[633] Who's sitting in the emergency exit?

[634] Isn't that amazing?

[635] And probably gave him a tiny eye flare as she handled.

[636] Right.

[637] Here's the thing.

[638] And here's an extra doers for your trouble.

[639] Yes, here's your payment.

[640] If people, if you're in a high -pressure situation, pay close attention to what other people are doing because sometimes that's the only way people can communicate with you.

[641] Yeah.

[642] I love that.

[643] I just like, you hope and pray that when you're in a panicked situation someday, because we're all going to be in one some way or another, you know, in our lives, that we react with, without panicking and with fucking foresight and a calmness and can like take the next steps necessary to make the situation better.

[644] I just really fucking hope that.

[645] I believe in the calmness amidst worst case scenarios because it's happened.

[646] to me in very strange ways.

[647] Like I told you the story of when I thought there was a rattlesnake in my sister's car that it was a hilarious college boy prank.

[648] But it was a coiled rattlesnake that was stuff.

[649] And they put it in my sister's car to see how much we'd freak out.

[650] I didn't know this.

[651] I leaned it.

[652] Yeah, I leaned.

[653] We were loading up my sister's car when we were both in Sacramento.

[654] I opened the passenger door, put something in her car, looked down, saw a coiled rattlesnake, and then moved backwards and shut the door so quickly.

[655] you did it that the guys that were watching to be like har -har you screamed and cried or whatever they were like whoa and they were super impressed and then I was super impressed but I was like don't fuck with Karen I didn't realize I had that in me to I just was like get away get it get a back word and close the doors and close the fucking door I had a moment or I was in I think like right before I met I was in a head on or no sorry right before I met Vince I was in this like head on fucking car accident where someone turned in front of me and I completely smashed into them.

[656] And a few seconds before it happened, I realized there was no way to get out of it.

[657] I was going to completely around this car.

[658] Oh, it's so scary.

[659] And I just thought, okay, here.

[660] Like, I have anxiety.

[661] So I'm always waiting for the worst case scenario.

[662] So I was like, here it comes.

[663] This is the worst case.

[664] You know, and I remember how you always read about people who are drunk driving.

[665] The drunk people don't get hurt because they're so relaxed.

[666] Yes.

[667] So I made myself relax my entire body when I hit the car.

[668] And you weren't injured?

[669] No. Oh, dude.

[670] Yeah.

[671] That's like, I mean, I don't know if it wasn't injured because I had a good car.

[672] Thank you, Nissan Versa.

[673] Or because the car accident wasn't as bad as I thought it was, you know.

[674] That was a very high value endorsement.

[675] It was, right?

[676] Yeah.

[677] That's a safe car.

[678] Well, that's amazing.

[679] That's a little bit like the time I got sucked under in a wave in Hawaii where I couldn't get.

[680] I was basically spinning like a washer machine.

[681] You don't know which way's up.

[682] Yeah.

[683] And it was, and I just went, do not, like, I just had this moment of like, I went.

[684] went so calm.

[685] I've never been that calm in my life.

[686] And I was just like, just continue to hold your breath.

[687] This is going to be over like 10 seconds.

[688] Count to count to 10.

[689] And then that's what happened.

[690] It came up.

[691] There was so much sand in my bathing suit.

[692] There was just so much sand everywhere.

[693] And then I was like, why did you save me?

[694] It was like one of those moments.

[695] But in the moment of it, I think we all have the capacity.

[696] There is that in you and you should know it.

[697] So as evening starts to fucking set in and the onboard power supply is getting lower and the lights are getting dimmer and the cool air isn't circulating anymore, which sounds terrifying.

[698] Then the mechanic of the plane named Mirjee Karas tells Safarini that the emergency power is only going to last like 15 more minutes and the airplane is going to experience a blackout and tells them to prepare for it.

[699] So around 9 p .m., almost 17 hours after the initial hijack, can you fucking imagine?

[700] The aircraft auxiliary power goes down and the plane goes dark.

[701] And you can see in like the news reports that I watched.

[702] It's the whole tarmac is black and the plane is black because they turn the lights off so that the military could fucking rush in and shit.

[703] Oh, nice.

[704] So it's all dark.

[705] Yeah.

[706] And the hijackers panic because they think that the Pakistani security forces are getting.

[707] ready to raid the plane.

[708] That's why the lights went out and that's what they think.

[709] So a hijacker, they just panic at that point.

[710] And a hijacker tries to shoot out the explosive belt worn by another hijacker.

[711] He tries to like ignite it to cause an explosion.

[712] That would be massive enough to kill the entire, you know, plane, passenger and crew as well as the hijackers.

[713] But since the cabin's so dark, he misses causing only a small detonation.

[714] And then the other hijackers hearing that shooting panic and they begin shooting their weapons into the cabin at passengers and they start throwing their grenades and there's little explosions and you can see in one of the videos there's like a simulation computer simulation and there's little explosions all over the plane.

[715] Wow.

[716] And it's terrifying.

[717] But the lack of light also means that they're not able to pull the pins fully and end up only creating these little explosions instead of what should be huge explosions.

[718] And ultimately the guns create the most damage since even Each bullet is just ricocheting off the cabin and creating shrapnel.

[719] Yeah.

[720] So everyone's in a panic at this point.

[721] Everyone.

[722] When the lights go out, all the flight attendants and passengers are in the middle section of the cabin and several seated on the ground in the aisles and near the doors and Mahariji, the 28 -year -old mechanic, they realize, has been killed.

[723] And in the chaos and everything going on, people start opening the doors.

[724] Oh, okay.

[725] They're like, they take this distraction to open some of the cabin doors.

[726] Great.

[727] But it's not clear who opens them.

[728] And although Nierzja could have been, she was by a door and could have been one of the first people off the flight because of her proximity, instead she stays behind to help the passengers get off safely and starts ushering them out.

[729] Oh.

[730] Out onto the slide.

[731] Oh.

[732] Like stays on board.

[733] Yeah.

[734] And, like, amidst this chaos.

[735] And when all the passengers are finally off the plane, the rest of the crew who had escaped the.

[736] They go back into the dark plane because they realize that they're not hearing any more gunfire.

[737] And so they go back on, which is so brave.

[738] That's amazing.

[739] That's when Sunshine, the flight attendant, sees Nyrja.

[740] She's been shot in the hip.

[741] She's conscious but bleeding heavily.

[742] And according to a surviving passenger, Nierzia had been guiding the passengers to the emergency exit in this mayhem.

[743] And the hijackers had noticed.

[744] And they realized that she is shielding three American children with her body as the hijacker grab her by her ponytail, and they shoot her multiple times.

[745] Oh, God.

[746] So she's shot and down and bleeding.

[747] Sunshine calls over to another attendant.

[748] They get Nierzja to the emergency slide.

[749] They, like, help her off, and she's put into an ambulance and transported to the hospital, which is completely overflowing with other passengers at this point.

[750] Nairja has a pulse upon arrival, but she ultimately dies from her injuries.

[751] Oh, God.

[752] I know.

[753] The combined efforts of the 14 flight attendants that day, it's thought saved hundreds of lives.

[754] And for two more days after the attack, the crew stays with the young children who are left alone until they can be reunited with their other family members.

[755] Like fucking heroics.

[756] For real?

[757] 22 people are killed and about 150 are injured from the attack.

[758] Three of the hijackers are caught fleeing the airport and Saharini is still on board when, Pakistan's security forces enter the plane.

[759] The 381 total passengers plus crew, the crew on the Pan Am Flight 73, are citizens of 14 different countries.

[760] India represents about 26 % of the people on board, and they also represent 28 % of those killed.

[761] And out of a total of 44 American passengers, only two are killed during the hijacking.

[762] Whoa, that's a miracle.

[763] Yeah.

[764] After a short break, all the members of the Flight 73 crew return to Pan Am to work, and they work at least a couple years, all of them.

[765] Whoa.

[766] Yeah, they occasionally work the same flight together and run into each other, and they don't like discussing the hijacking, obviously.

[767] And two of the six of them remain in the industry to this day.

[768] Wow.

[769] Yeah.

[770] During the interviews that they have with BBC in 2016, because a movie comes out about this whole thing, and a lot of them hadn't talked to the media at that point.

[771] But they, some of them then finally do, and they stress that there's no single hero that day, that crew members not interviewed played an equally important role.

[772] So for the hijackers, so there's five total.

[773] There was one that wasn't on the plane.

[774] They are deported by Pakistani authorities to Palestine in 2008, and they escape.

[775] So on December 3rd, 2009, the FBI, in coordination with the State Department, announced a $5 million reward for information leading to their capture.

[776] and the FBI released new age -progressed images of them, and the case is still under investigation by the Washington Field Office of the Bureau.

[777] Whoa.

[778] Yeah.

[779] To this day.

[780] Yeah.

[781] And, you know, it's hard.

[782] I can't say that with total assuredy because there's different reports of, like, how people got away and how much time they got, and did they escape or were they let out?

[783] Like, we don't.

[784] It's so it's, it's, that's a whole different fucking story.

[785] Yeah.

[786] But the Pan Am crew of Flight 73 are given courage awards by the airline in 1986.

[787] and the U .S. Department of Justice in 2005 and the U .S. Attorney General in 2006, and Nairjah Bahanat is awarded posthumous bravery awards in India and Pakistan.

[788] And she becomes internationally known as the heroine of hijacking and becomes the youngest recipient of the Ashuk Chakra Award, which is India's most prestigious military award for bravery during peacetime.

[789] 23 years old and sacrifices herself in that way.

[790] They release a statement with the award that says, her loyalties to the passengers of the aircraft in distress will forever be a lasting tribute to the finest qualities of the human spirit.

[791] She also receives multiple awards for her courage from the United States government and Pakistan.

[792] And in 2004, the Indian Postal Service releases a stamp commemorating her.

[793] Wow.

[794] Yeah, we'll put it on the Instagram.

[795] That's very cool.

[796] After her death, her family sets up a Pan Am trust with insurance money and a contribution from Pan Am.

[797] And the trust presents two awards every year.

[798] One is for a flight crew member worldwide who acts beyond the call of duty.

[799] And the other is the NIRGA Bonnacht Award.

[800] And it goes to an Indian woman who is brave and helps other women in distressed when faced with social injustice.

[801] Wow.

[802] And a seven -year -old child who was on board that flight is now a captain for a major airline and has stated that Nirja has been his inspiration and that he owes every day of his life to her.

[803] Oh, my God.

[804] And that is the hijacking of Pan Amphlight 73 and the heroine of hijacking Nairjah Bahot.

[805] Unbelievable.

[806] Fucking crazy, right?

[807] I'm sweating right now.

[808] No, I was grasping my hands in front of me like a little child in prayer being like, oh my God, what's going to happen?

[809] And that wasn't the same story as the I survived episode.

[810] Because the woman in the I survived episode was shot in the head by the terrorist and thrown out onto the tarmac.

[811] Oh, my God.

[812] And just waited there and they picked her up.

[813] assumed she was dead i think i saw that one it's cr she tells us firsthand story it's very similar was it the one that you told jada do i'm not sure no no no i think it's not because i think the one that i no so there's four hijackings let's say no there's been a minimum of four look hijackings used to be the way to go for because it got this was pre 24 hour news cycle so it got tons of press and and it got people got their way yeah got to do it because there was no never an effective way to change it right yeah yeah it's huge in the 70s and 80s it seems like yeah amazing yeah great job thank you this week i'm going to do the tulsa race massacre it's also called the black wall street massacre of 1921 or the greenwood massacre wow so did you watch watchmen the HBO series yes okay so you know how it started and then there was that one episode that was tightly dedicated to that's a true fucking story that was crazy okay so this is very cool so I remember watching that and the whole time I was watching it going please don't let this be real and of course it was and then I read articles about it whatever yeah or at least I read one article about it basically confirming like oh no this is real yeah and um it made me think of it because at like the Wednesday like after we recorded last week someone a keel green who I follow on Twitter retweeted this amazing article from the root, which I'll talk about at the end of the episode, but basically reminded me what an amazing story it is.

[814] And it was told in Watchmen so compellingly and incredibly.

[815] And in this way where you're just like, oh, this is that what has been termed black history in this country where basically it doesn't get talked about because really fucked up shit happened.

[816] Yeah.

[817] And no one wants to acknowledge it.

[818] Yeah.

[819] People don't acknowledge in it and when they do something it gets whitewashed or mishandled and then cue me walking in with my papers hey um but the cool thing is when a show like that that's popular and cool and then taking out Alan Moore taking this historical context and then being like hey here's this character you care about yeah this is this thing that happened to like her ancestors essentially and now you're in this story now you understand that this was a real place place and time.

[820] I really did a good job of like showing the fear that you would have, no matter, you know, in that situation and how dire and desperate and terrifying it was.

[821] Insane.

[822] So just to quote the sources, obviously, the original concept was because watching Watchmen and me going, oh my God, oh my God.

[823] The work that got done around this and basically kind of in the retelling, there's an amazing article.

[824] So the root article was written by a writer named Jay Connor and a podcaster.

[825] There was also an article in the Washington Post by a writer named Deneen L. Brown.

[826] And that article is unbelievable and it has pictures and it's lots of firsthand accounts.

[827] And there's a city councilwoman who lives in Tulsa now.

[828] And she talks about how, I believe it was her grandmother.

[829] She said, who she learned about it from her, but they barely talk about it.

[830] It was literally a taboo subject.

[831] They just didn't want to discuss it.

[832] because it was a massacre and it's been referred to since historically as a race riot and when you classically the phrase race riot means black people started it and that's why it's called a race massacre and that people want it referred to as that because because of how the story actually goes yeah it's just one of those things where wording matters yeah and it's a thing that like you don't understand how ignorant you are until you learn how ignorant you are and then how you deal with that ignorance is you can either go, no, I'm not and fuck you.

[833] And it's just as sad for me a white person or you could actually pay attention and read and try.

[834] And try.

[835] Yeah, try it up a little.

[836] And then do better.

[837] Try to clap, clap, clap, do better.

[838] Okay, so there was the, there's also a great article in Smithsonian magazine by a writer named Alison Keys about the 2015 discovery of a firsthand 10 page typewritten.

[839] I should have said first hand here firsthand account of this massacre by a lawyer in the Greenwood district named Buck Colbert Franklin so he basically saw it all happening walked outside like and then when it was all over went home and typed up everything he saw and remembered and then folded it up basically and put it away and it wasn't discovered until like four or five years ago and now it's in the Smithsonian Oh, my God.

[840] So that's a great article if you want to look that up and see.

[841] And then there's a book by a writer named Scott Ellsworth called Death in a Promise Land about the Greenwood Massacre.

[842] The forward of that book is by a man, a historian named John Hope Franklin, who I believe worked at the Smithsonian.

[843] Wow.

[844] And he is the son of Buck Colbert Franklin.

[845] Wow.

[846] Okay, so that's all if you want to do more reading about this.

[847] Those are good places.

[848] Also, of course, our friend Wikipedia was there for me. So, was there for Jay, Elias, my researcher, and our assistant.

[849] Okay, so this starts Monday, May 30th, 1921.

[850] It's Memorial Day in Tulsa, Oklahoma, and in the rest of America.

[851] So a 19 -year -old boy named Dick Rowland, who is a shoe shine that works nearby, he goes into the Drexel building at 319 South Main Street, and he gets into the elevator because he needs to ride up to the top floor, because that's the only place where there's a black's only restroom in the entire area.

[852] And he is a black man, and so he has to go there.

[853] It's the only place he can go.

[854] Right.

[855] So this elevator is operated by a 17 -year -old white girl named Sarah Page.

[856] So they've at the very least seen each other before because she's the only elevator operator and the only elevator in the Drexel building.

[857] And he's clearly had to use that restroom at the top of that building before.

[858] So soon after Dick Rowland enters the elevator, a clerk at the Drexel's first floor clothing store, Renbergs, hears a woman's scream from the elevator.

[859] So that clerk rushes out to see a black man running from the building, and then he goes into the elevator area to find Sarah Page still in the elevator in what he described as a, quote, distrapped state.

[860] So the clerk assumes Sarah's been assaulted and he calls the police.

[861] The police arrived.

[862] They speak with Sarah.

[863] There is no written statement on the record.

[864] It's never taken.

[865] None has ever taken.

[866] The police begin an investigation.

[867] And the exact details of what actually happened in the elevator are still unknown.

[868] But most people believe that Dick either tripped while he was walking into the elevator and fell and grabbed Sarah's arm to steady himself or he stepped on her foot as he walked into the elevator and then grabbed her so she wouldn't fall over.

[869] But there was basically physical contact.

[870] And it's likely she screamed because she was.

[871] startled by it.

[872] So Dick immediately ran knowing that the worst would be assumed about his actions and his intentions, no matter how innocent the incident actually was.

[873] Yeah.

[874] So Dick goes to his mom's house in the Greenwood District of Tulsa.

[875] So here's a little historical context, all of which was mostly brand new information to me, the person with barely a high school education.

[876] Okay.

[877] So when the Civil War ended in 1865, the slaves in Oklahoma are emancipated, and they stay in the area and resettle as free people.

[878] So in the early 1900s, Tulsa experiences this huge boom because there's a discovery of a massive oil supply at Red Fork that's just across the Arkansas River from Tulsa.

[879] And then in 1905, workers strike another oil well that they call Glenpool, and Tulsa becomes one of the most oil -rich areas in America.

[880] Did you know that?

[881] No, no oil in Oklahoma?

[882] Absolutely not.

[883] I had no idea.

[884] No, no idea.

[885] No. Did not know.

[886] There's oil.

[887] So more and more people come to the area for work, and the population grows from around the year 1900, there was like almost 1 ,400 people that lived in Tulsa.

[888] And 20 years later, 98 ,874 people live in Tulsa.

[889] They couldn't get one more for a fucking round number there?

[890] Could we just have a round number?

[891] I also like that this is an estimated number, and it's the most random number of all time.

[892] But that was when I would normally step in and round it up myself and then, you know, give fuck Wikipedia over once again.

[893] Okay, so Oklahoma becomes a state in 1907.

[894] Basically, it's the whole turn of the century and after this time of amazing growth, especially for the black community in Tulsa.

[895] They're thriving.

[896] It's a huge accomplishment because this is post -Civil War Jim Crow South.

[897] There's segregation and bigotry as a constant oppressive reality for all black Americans.

[898] And yet the black citizens of Tulsa have figured out how to succeed and prosper despite like a whole system that's rigged against them.

[899] So it was a very big deal.

[900] So much so, the reputation of this thriving black community in Tulsa draws the attention of leading black intellectual and educator of the day, Booker T. Washington.

[901] And he takes a trip out to Oklahoma to see what's going on.

[902] What year did you say?

[903] 1905.

[904] A year later, with Booker T. Washington's guidance, they officially organized this 4 ,000 -acre, entirely black -owned neighborhood as the Greenwood District.

[905] Wow.

[906] There's two newspapers, two movie theaters, one of the movies theaters is featured in Watchman, grocery stores, churches, nightclubs, medical centers, Dennis' office, all entirely black -owned.

[907] Amazing.

[908] And for the next 13 years, Greenwood, the Greenwood District flourishes.

[909] And Its success earns the nickname Black Wall Street.

[910] After World War I ends in 1918, American servicemen returning from the war flock to Tulsa because there's a bunch of work and a bunch of money there because of the oil.

[911] But many of these white veterans are not happy that they have to compete for jobs with educated black citizens.

[912] So this is also the same time.

[913] Black American veterans are coming back to America and they're trying to assert their equal rights.

[914] Right.

[915] They just fought for the fucking our country.

[916] They just fought and watched their fellow soldiers die for their country.

[917] They come back to us.

[918] But they have no, fuck it.

[919] They have no rights.

[920] They can't vote.

[921] They can't go to the bathroom in a regular restroom.

[922] Like, it's so restrictive and ridiculous.

[923] And they're just like, this is bullshit as it is.

[924] And then kind of like the third or one of the elements that's the Topper, which I mentioned in my story last week about the death of Mary Fagan.

[925] The murder of Mary Fagan and the murder of Leo Frank, it's around this time that KKK starts to have a resurgence.

[926] God damn.

[927] Yeah.

[928] So tensions are high in the South and everywhere.

[929] In 1920, a white 18 -year -old boy named Roy Belton is accused of murdering a local Tulsa taxi driver.

[930] And before his guilt is even confirmed, a group of armed men stormed the jail, take Belton, and lynch him.

[931] Holy shit.

[932] Yeah.

[933] Yeah.

[934] He was white or black?

[935] He was white.

[936] Oh.

[937] So many Tulsans blame the police for not protecting Belton.

[938] Others support this lynching as this vigilante act that's righteous.

[939] Right.

[940] But this event makes the black citizens of Tulsa fear for their lives because if that can happen to a white boy, they know that they are definitely not safe.

[941] No. So now we're back to 1921 with the elevator incident.

[942] The morning after, which is Tuesday, May 31st, 1921, the police find 19 year old Dick Roland at his mom.

[943] mom's house on Greenwood Avenue, and they take him to the Tulsa City Jail at first in Main Street for questioning.

[944] Dick explains to police that although he did put his hand on Sarah, he was not trying to hurt her.

[945] That afternoon, around 3 p .m. with Dick in custody, the white -owned newspaper, the Tulsa Tribune, prints a story about Dick's arrest with the headline, quote, Nab Negro for attacking girl in an elevator.

[946] The rest of the article supports this biased headline and makes Dick look guilty of an attempted assault.

[947] Okay, so the same paper also publishes an editorial piece.

[948] It's like they had these ready to go.

[949] And they publish an editorial piece with the headline, quote, to lynch Negro tonight, essentially calling for more vigilante justice.

[950] So obviously, this newspaper is putting Dick Rowland's life in danger intentionally.

[951] It's like a call to action.

[952] It certainly is.

[953] So after the paper releases those articles, police commissioners, J .M. Atkinson gets an anonymous phone call threatening to kill Dick Rowland.

[954] So that coupled with the fact that the police are still shaking off the criticism that they didn't properly protect Belton, Commissioner Atkinson moves Dick Rowland to the more secure jail on the top floor of the Tulsa County courthouse.

[955] But rumors of a potential lynching and the calling for a goddamn lynching in the newspaper.

[956] Yeah, it's not a rumor.

[957] draws more and more people to the courthouse and by 7 .30 that night hundreds of angry white Tulsins are gathered outside the courthouse demanding to be shown Dick Rowland.

[958] Oh dear.

[959] It's called a mob.

[960] It's an angry terrorist mob.

[961] So Sheriff Willard M. McCullough sends six of his officers to the roof of the courthouse with rifles.

[962] He disables the courthouse elevator and he positions more officers on the top floor with directions not to open the door for any around 8 .20, three white men from the angry mob somehow, quote unquote, get inside the courthouse, the sheriff immediately gets them out.

[963] And he then addresses the crowd telling them there isn't going to be a lynching.

[964] They all need to leave.

[965] Now, it's, you know, questionable whether or not he made a real effort here.

[966] Yeah.

[967] Because despite his quote unquote orders, the crowd continues to build.

[968] And by nine o 'clock that night, there are 400 angry.

[969] White Tulson's outside of the courthouse.

[970] With rumors of a potential lynching swirling around the town, the people of the Greenwood District gather on Greenwood Avenue to come up with a plan because they know Dick Rowland is basically a dead man. He's innocent and they're going to kill him terribly.

[971] They don't know what their strategy should be, though.

[972] The World War I vets want to collect up guns and ammo and prepare for potential battle.

[973] The businessmen want to be as peaceful as possible because they don't want anything that would threaten their hard -earned properties and businesses.

[974] About 20 to 50 of the men of the Greenwood District decide to go to the courthouse as a group, some of them armed, and offer their services to the sheriff to help protect Dick Rowland.

[975] Oh, dear.

[976] Right.

[977] But I was thinking about that where I was like, oh, it's not the best idea, but you would have to go armed.

[978] If you're going as this tiny group of black men, you can't not take.

[979] Sure.

[980] It's understandable.

[981] come with you.

[982] It's just like, you know where this is going.

[983] But the only option is to let them kill an innocent 19 -year -old.

[984] And also, I think these were very empowered, intelligent people who are just kind of like, it ain't going to be this way anymore.

[985] Like, let's not.

[986] Yeah.

[987] When they arrive, the sheriff is like, no thanks.

[988] Get out.

[989] We don't need your help.

[990] You're making it worse.

[991] They go back to the Greenwood District.

[992] But the angry white men who had been standing outside the courthouse were surprised by this group of Greenwood District men.

[993] and they were enraged that they would appear there.

[994] So a bunch of them leave the courthouse, a bunch of the angry white mob, leave the courthouse, go home to get their own guns, and a group of several hundred decide to try to get more weapons by robbing the National Guard.

[995] Oh, no. Yeah.

[996] So Mayor James Bell, who was of the National Guard's 180th Infantry Regiment, he knew what was happening downtown at the courthouse, and he was prepared.

[997] He had his guards prepped and ready to shoot any intruders on site.

[998] And so basically they come up to the National Guard, I guess, armory to go and be like, we're taking guns and we're going to go.

[999] And they were all just like, we'll kill you if you keep coming.

[1000] So they just walked away.

[1001] Okay, great.

[1002] Right?

[1003] So they give up there and go back to the courthouse.

[1004] So now the crowd of the courthouse has swelled to nearly 2 ,000 angry white men, most of whom are now armed.

[1005] Right.

[1006] word of the growing armed mob gets back to the Greenwood District and some of the men in Greenwood decide that this is their last chance to save Dick Rowland from being lynched.

[1007] This time, 75 black men from the Greenwood District, now most of them armed, arrive at the courthouse just after 10 p .m. Again, they offer their services to the sheriff.

[1008] Again, he says no. But now that the white mob is armed, they're feeling bolder.

[1009] One of them reportedly approaches one of these, one of the black men from Greenwood the Greenwood group and demands he give up his pistol the black man refuses a shot is fired so no one knows for sure who fired that shot whether or not it was an accident if it was just like every you know emotions were running high if it was meant to scare both groups off no one knows what happened but ultimately it doesn't matter because it starts a shootout that leaves 12 people some black and some white dead they're drastically outnumbered so the group of black men retreat back to the greenwood district but this time the white men follow looting stores along the way for more weapons and ammo so now it's on yeah the gun fight continues along the frisco train tracks which separate the greenwood district from the neighboring white districts some of the white mob drive into greenwood proper and start shooting at people and businesses drive by style so they just start and some of these people People didn't know what was going on.

[1010] So that was part of the watchmen thing.

[1011] It was so amazing is people coming out of a movie theater.

[1012] They went into movie theaters where those people had no idea and then just murdered everybody in a movie theater.

[1013] So they're just picking people off on the street.

[1014] In some cases, business owners trying to protect themselves return fire.

[1015] Meanwhile, the National Guard, officers come up with a way to stop the chaos, but it's not a great plan.

[1016] They stationed guards at the courthouse, but then they station protective guards only around the white neighborhoods.

[1017] They send other guards to round up black people, whether they're participating in violence or not, and detain them at the convention hall on Brady Street.

[1018] So immediately, it's protect white people and arrest black people.

[1019] The fighting continues through the early morning hours of Wednesday, June 1st, 1921.

[1020] Around 1 a .m., the white mob begins setting black people.

[1021] businesses along Archer Street on fire.

[1022] Some reporters say the Tulsa Fire Department tried to put the fires out, but the white mob threatened to shoot them if they did.

[1023] Some other reports suggest that the fire department was citing with the white mob and deliberately didn't put the fires out.

[1024] The fires rage and by 4 a .m., roughly two dozen black -owned businesses are burning.

[1025] Oh, my God.

[1026] Okay, so this is where Buck Colbert, I'm pronouncing it Colbert like Stephen Colbert, or could be Colbert, but Buck Colbert Franklin, this is from his 10 -page document where he wrote it right after he saw it.

[1027] And this, you can also read this in Smithsonian Magazine.

[1028] He wrote, quote, I could see planes circling in midair.

[1029] They grew in number and hummed, darted, and dipped low.

[1030] I could hear something like hail falling upon the top of my office building.

[1031] Down east archer, I saw the old Midway Hotel on fire burning from its top.

[1032] And then another and another and another building began to burn from their top.

[1033] The sidewalks were literally covered with burning turpentine balls.

[1034] I knew all too well where they came from, and I knew all too well why every burning building first caught from the top.

[1035] I paused and waited for an opportune time to escape.

[1036] Where, oh, where is our splendid fire department with its half dozen stations?

[1037] I asked myself, is the city in conspiracy with the mob?

[1038] So people were flying overhead of the Greenwood District and throwing turpentine balls down onto the buildings so they'd all catch on fire and burn.

[1039] So it was like a complete onslaught.

[1040] It was a blitz.

[1041] Completely.

[1042] Overpowered by the mob, many Greenwood district residents flee the city.

[1043] Troops from another Oklahoma National Guard station arrive on the scene around 9 .15 a .m. on June 1st as backup.

[1044] At this point, roughly 4 ,000 black people have been detained by the local National Guard.

[1045] 4 ,000.

[1046] The National Guard declares martial law around 11 .50 a .m. and try to regain order.

[1047] Between 12 and 1 p .m., the violence finally stops, but the fires rage on for two full days.

[1048] The rounding up and detention of black citizens in the city continues throughout.

[1049] When martial law is finally withdrawn on Friday, June 4th, 1921, there's still about 6 ,000 black people being held in detention.

[1050] Some are held for as long as eight days.

[1051] Wow.

[1052] When all of a sudden done, more than 35 ,000.

[1053] blocks in the Greenwood District are destroyed.

[1054] 35 blocks.

[1055] Oh, my God.

[1056] A hundred and one businesses, 1 ,200 homes, churches and schools are burned to the ground.

[1057] An estimated 10 ,000 black citizens are left homeless.

[1058] It's hard to say exactly how many people died because many media outlets at the time would change their counts and release conflicting information.

[1059] But the estimates today range anywhere from 55 people to 300.

[1060] Wow.

[1061] And there are, is a, this is really amazing in that Washington Post article.

[1062] They talk about how there's a potter's field that's out in the back of the cemetery in Tulsa.

[1063] They believe that they dumped a bunch of bodies out there that just, they just buried them in a mass grave.

[1064] And that's why they don't know the number.

[1065] Fuck.

[1066] Governor James B .A. Robertson calls for a grand jury to investigate how the massacre came about.

[1067] The investigation starts on June 8th, 1921, and includes both black and white witnesses as well as the sheriff and other city officials.

[1068] They're all questioned about the events over a 12 -day period.

[1069] But the jury is made up of all white people.

[1070] And they and they find the massacre was incited by the black citizens.

[1071] Of course they do.

[1072] While they do acknowledge the law enforcement failed to prevent the violence, that's ultimately a worthless concession.

[1073] The court reviews 27 different cases associated with the massacre and 85 people are indicted, but when all the legal proceedings are done, not one person is convicted for the murders or the damages in the Greenwood District.

[1074] When questioned about what happened, Tulsa Police, firefighters, National Guard, and other officials try to say they did everything they could to stop the violence, but witness accounts say otherwise.

[1075] There are mentions of the city preventing the Red Cross from coming in to provide medical aid, and firefighters either letting the fires rage or being persuaded by the white mob to stand down.

[1076] There are even report, which is not a hard thing to be persuaded by a fucking angry mob.

[1077] There are even reports that local police had deputized some of the mob giving them weapons and the authority to attack or detain black residents.

[1078] Hope Franklin, the son of Buck Franklin from the man who wrote his eyewitness.

[1079] He says, the term riot is contentious because it assumes that black people started the violence.

[1080] as they were accused of doing by whites.

[1081] We increasingly use the term massacre, or I use the European term, pogrom.

[1082] It's a long road to rebuild the Greenwood District, and even though it's eventually rebuilt, of course it's never the same.

[1083] Today, gentrification threatens to bury the history of the massacre and of the once thriving prosperous black community.

[1084] Historians and activists have been fighting to have the story of the Greenwood Massacre taught in Oklahoma classrooms for a year, years.

[1085] But since the success and popularity of HBO series Watchmen starring America's Queen Regina King, I put that in, and their incredibly impactful use of the events of the Greenwood Massacre, that has apparently pushed the argument over the edge.

[1086] And this month, February of 2020, Oklahoma, and this was what that root article was all about.

[1087] Yeah.

[1088] Rute article written by Jay Connor.

[1089] Oklahoma's Department of Education has announced that it will be officially adding the story of the Greenwood Massacre to public school curriculums by this fall just in time for its 100th anniversary in 2021.

[1090] Holy shit.

[1091] And that is the up until very recently kind of untold history of Tulsa's Greenwood Massacre.

[1092] And if anyone's interested, the writer for the article for The Root, J. Connor, he also produces and co -host a podcast called The Extraordinary Negroes.

[1093] So you might want to give that a listen.

[1094] Amazing.

[1095] And also just, I don't know any of this shit.

[1096] I had to look up the details of what the Jim Crow laws were.

[1097] There's so much, especially like in the 80s, we were not educated in any, I think, effective way about black history.

[1098] It's as if it's our choice, whether or not we want to know stuff like this.

[1099] Yeah, totally.

[1100] And so that's also not to overdo it, but the importance of diversity in, especially in goddamn show business and in Hollywood, is because these stories are great, important, vital American stories that should be told.

[1101] And the people that made The Watchmen prove that point.

[1102] Yeah.

[1103] Like, what an amazing use of fact and horrible.

[1104] Like, there's plenty of horrible stories in our history.

[1105] But they don't have to just remain taboo, unspoken.

[1106] Don't talk about that.

[1107] Because it actually helps people learn how to do better when we know how fucking back.

[1108] it actually was yeah not covering over not rationalizing not saying it was some it was their own fault it was someone else's a riot they should have done that yeah it's none of that stuff but actually going how do we make it so there's less angry mobs in general yeah still to this day to this goddamn minute good job no great that was incredible I'm like speechless that was that was hardcore well it's fucking heavy it's heavy and scary to talk about totally It's scary to talk about.

[1109] Yeah.

[1110] And it's important.

[1111] Yeah.

[1112] Let's do some fucking hurray.

[1113] Yes.

[1114] There we go.

[1115] Do we do ours first or these listeners first?

[1116] I don't know.

[1117] What do you think?

[1118] I guess we do listeners.

[1119] Okay.

[1120] Then we can figure out what we want to do.

[1121] Do you know what yours is?

[1122] I do.

[1123] Me too, of course.

[1124] You go first.

[1125] This one is my fucking hooray.

[1126] Humanity doesn't always suck.

[1127] This is from the fan cult forum.

[1128] Okay.

[1129] by Katie E. She wrote, Hi, MFFM crew, my fucking hooray this week.

[1130] I was driving home from work on an unseasonably warm winter day behind the same car for a good bit.

[1131] There was an obviously squirmy kid in the back seat with the window down, waving his hand out of the window.

[1132] I could tell he was turning around and waving at me sometimes, so I waved back in parentheses.

[1133] I'm not a total crank.

[1134] But the best part, as I followed this car through a pedestrian heavy road, was seeing all of the folks walking who also decided to wave back to this kid.

[1135] He had a great big smile on his face with every wave, and it was obvious he was soaking in the joy that came from waving to people and unexpectedly getting a wave back.

[1136] And it was an unexpected bit of joy for me in the midst of a shitty fucking week.

[1137] So fucking hooray for the happy waving kid and all the people who wave back to him, humanity doesn't always suck.

[1138] Sometimes it returns the pure, kind gestures in ways that we need.

[1139] That's so few.

[1140] Isn't that good?

[1141] It's the little things.

[1142] It can be.

[1143] I love that.

[1144] I know.

[1145] Okay, this one's from Instagram, Katie Girl, 129.

[1146] My fucking array is that I finally got off my pain medication after being on them for 15 years.

[1147] Whoa.

[1148] I have a jaw disorder and have undergone multiple surgeries and they never worked.

[1149] March of 2019, I had another jaw surgery with a new surgeon and I'm without pain for the first time in my life.

[1150] Whoa.

[1151] Yeah.

[1152] That amazing.

[1153] incredible.

[1154] Every day must be a gut.

[1155] She's the waving kid every day.

[1156] That's the, that's from the waving kid.

[1157] Holy share.

[1158] Congratulations, everybody.

[1159] Listen to this one.

[1160] This is also from the fan.

[1161] I have the fan cult forum ones.

[1162] This is from Sherry.

[1163] So tonight I went alone to see Chris Fairbanks in Milwaukee.

[1164] Yay.

[1165] I tried to talk myself out of it a few times.

[1166] I hear that.

[1167] But I drove an hour in the dark to a place I'd never been.

[1168] I felt weird and awkward at first.

[1169] But very soon I met.

[1170] some murderinos and a few other solo attendees and all the awkwardness quickly went away.

[1171] Another solo person, Jay, sat next to me and told me several times that she was proud of me for coming.

[1172] And she was right.

[1173] I'm proud of myself for getting out of my comfort zone and doing something I wanted to do even though I had to do it alone.

[1174] It was so fun.

[1175] And I got up the courage to actually meet Chris after the show, such a sweetheart, so fucking hooray to me. Oh my God, I love it.

[1176] I love the idea that there is a secret network of murderingos who go to things and other people and listeners know that they can go by themselves.

[1177] They can practice that.

[1178] Or if they see someone alone, they can be like, this is scary for them too.

[1179] I'm acknowledging that and I'm going to approach them.

[1180] Even if they're not murderingos, it's like, it's just like, we all know how scary it is, how scary life is.

[1181] How scary being alone can be.

[1182] And you can actually do something about that.

[1183] Just wear a little pin Make yourself known That's right You got friends waiting for you Here's one from ACG underscore MPLS I don't know She's from Minneapolis My fuck in her way is that this Saturday The day after my birthday My Miracle Baby is due We tried for three and a half years to conceive And we're convinced we couldn't And now here we are Wow I'm a baby A baby.

[1184] In five years, that baby's going to be waving out the window.

[1185] That's right.

[1186] Bringing joy to others.

[1187] That's right.

[1188] Babies are miracles.

[1189] There they are.

[1190] I really believe in the good work babies do.

[1191] It's watching Nora grow up and all the goodness she brought to our horrible falling apart family.

[1192] She really made it work.

[1193] Keep us posted on the miracle baby.

[1194] We want to see pictures of that baby.

[1195] Yeah.

[1196] Okay.

[1197] This one is from Chintel.

[1198] It's C -H -A -Postrophe N -T -E -L.

[1199] Okay.

[1200] It's a brand -new way to spell it.

[1201] And the subject line is, guys, Tim Hortons has created a Kit -Cat -E -E -T -E -T -E -T -E -Mew.

[1202] What?

[1203] If you didn't know Tim Hortons is Canada's number one coffee slash donut chain restaurant.

[1204] Oh, yeah.

[1205] It's like you're Dunkin' Donuts, but better.

[1206] Sorry, not sorry.

[1207] Anyway, they've introduced a Kit -Cat -E -E -T -E -Mew.

[1208] Just one more reason for more live shows in Canada.

[1209] What is that?

[1210] have to look up pictures of that.

[1211] Kit Kat Everything.

[1212] Kit Kat Everything?

[1213] Maybe it's like a Kit Kat donut.

[1214] That's all I got.

[1215] Hot chocolate?

[1216] Poppy.

[1217] Stephen's cut chocolate.

[1218] Looking at it out.

[1219] Let me read one more.

[1220] While you read that, Steven's going to look it up so right after we can look at pictures of the Kit Kat Everything menu, I'm telling him to do it passive aggressively by saying that's what's going to happen.

[1221] This is from Annalisa Denny and she says, my fucking hooray is I have been dealing with depression since last year after disclosing my sexual abuse to both my boyfriend and my family.

[1222] It has been really hard and I was suicidal for a while, but I have had a really good week.

[1223] I know that my depression hasn't just gone away, but my God, does it feel good to just be genuinely happy, even if it's only for a couple of days.

[1224] Yep.

[1225] Amen.

[1226] Keep it up.

[1227] That's right.

[1228] Days turn into weeks.

[1229] That's right.

[1230] Yep.

[1231] Steven, Kit Katz.

[1232] This is the main picture that I think that they've been promoting.

[1233] So it's like a donut and brownie and like a brownie situation.

[1234] Kit cat everything.

[1235] Is Canada starting to discover how delicious their own kit cats are?

[1236] What's your fucking hooray?

[1237] Oh, I, um, my friend asked me to do a set.

[1238] I just tried to start doing sets again.

[1239] We've been kind of busy and crazy.

[1240] It's been a little weird lately.

[1241] So I was like, I'm going to, you know, like I'm always hedging.

[1242] I love doing it.

[1243] It makes me feel better when I do it.

[1244] but I just don't make the time to write.

[1245] So then when I do it, I just feel like I'm just doing the same stuff over and over and I hate it.

[1246] My friend asked me to do his show.

[1247] I was like, I'm probably not going to.

[1248] I'll say yes, but then I won't do it or whatever.

[1249] And then whatever he said back to me, I can't remember.

[1250] I just went, fine, I'll do it.

[1251] And then I was kind of like, instead of doing the thing I always do, which is project forward about how bad it's going to be and how, like, how I'm going to fail.

[1252] I was like, can you just write five new jokes?

[1253] And so I ended up writing, I think, two.

[1254] So it was basically baby steps progress But the two new jokes I wrote Killed and then I was like I just need to keep doing this I'm not going to be able to do it every single night And the hilarious thing was I kept stumbling over just saying words Where at some point I was like Have I talked out loud today?

[1255] I should have warmed up a little bit Before I walked out here I've been there But it didn't normally what happens Is if I stumble over a word I will immediately make eye contact with a dude who has a bad look on his face and then I'm like, I'm eating it, they hate me, this is terrible.

[1256] And instead I was just like, yeah, I just didn't say it right.

[1257] Like, here, I'm here.

[1258] This is the idea of what I'm saying.

[1259] And it all worked out great.

[1260] And I saw a bunch of people that I really like.

[1261] Like, Deb de Giovanni is one of the funniest stand -up comedians doing it right now.

[1262] And she was on that show.

[1263] I just got to hang out in the green room with a bunch of people I really like.

[1264] Dan Soder was in town from New York.

[1265] He's a genius comic, really talented.

[1266] Josh Adam Myers was there, who has the 500 podcast.

[1267] He was really hilarious and, yeah.

[1268] It was worthwhile.

[1269] It was just like a super fun hang.

[1270] So just the whole thing made me, I was just like, how about just staying neutral?

[1271] Yeah.

[1272] You don't, it doesn't have to be the greatest night of your life.

[1273] And it also isn't going to suck like the worst thing that's ever happened to you.

[1274] Yeah.

[1275] Just go have new experiences and like give it a whirl.

[1276] I feel like I've said that a hundred times.

[1277] I mean, it's hard to.

[1278] It's hard to continue to be positive.

[1279] Well, it's hard to practice getting, stepping out of my anxiety and just going, okay, you can think that.

[1280] Now go see what actually the truth is.

[1281] That's my practice that I'm proud to be practicing more because I know it conceptually, but then like that person said, like, it's so easy to talk yourself out of actually trying.

[1282] Well, that's the voice that you're used to listen.

[1283] to and that you've been listening to for so long.

[1284] And what if they're not right?

[1285] I know.

[1286] You're just, I mean, dude, I totally get that.

[1287] Yeah.

[1288] Um, mine is that I've been having a lot of anxiety as well.

[1289] I'm like kind of in between therapists and stuff.

[1290] And our schedule has been fucking crazy with this great like Christmas break where we took some time off and it's starting to ramp up again.

[1291] Yeah.

[1292] To a way that's very stressful.

[1293] Um, and I, my dad was like, oh, you free for lunch this week.

[1294] And I was like, I'm not.

[1295] I was so sorry.

[1296] I hate my schedule so busy.

[1297] And I was like complaining about it to him.

[1298] And he texts me back and said, embrace your schedule as you would a blessing.

[1299] Oh, Marty.

[1300] Shit.

[1301] Yeah.

[1302] I'm blessed that I have stuff going on and that my life has important meetings and important research that needs to be done.

[1303] And, you know, important shit.

[1304] Take a picture of that and then show it to office Georgia from 1998.

[1305] Yeah.

[1306] She'll be stoked.

[1307] She will be.

[1308] And it's hard.

[1309] Look, we both lose perspective.

[1310] Saying this out loud on this podcast makes us look like assholes.

[1311] Totally.

[1312] But within any, any system you're in, as great as things could be, the day to day is hard.

[1313] And we actually work, you know, super fucking hard.

[1314] Yeah.

[1315] We just do.

[1316] Yeah.

[1317] It's, but it's also fun.

[1318] Yeah.

[1319] But yeah.

[1320] And it's, there's a fucking amazing payoff at the end of the day with it.

[1321] It's very cool.

[1322] I'm, I'm, I, That could actually also be my fucking ray is just the stuff we've been doing recently, the development stuff and like Bridger's show and the upcoming other shows we get to announce soon.

[1323] It's really starting to feel like there's this movement.

[1324] And it's so exciting because we've been working and kind of fighting for so long.

[1325] And now it's actually like kind of results are being.

[1326] Things are rolling out.

[1327] Unfurled.

[1328] And there's a reason for it all.

[1329] Yeah, that's true.

[1330] It's kind of like how hard the book was.

[1331] And then the book came out.

[1332] We're like, oh, yeah, this was so worth it.

[1333] Respective.

[1334] I love that Marty's the one that did it, though.

[1335] That is such a, like, oh, scam likely from San Rafael.

[1336] I'm not answering.

[1337] Oh, that's right by Petaluma.

[1338] Yeah, embrace your schedule as you would a blessing.

[1339] As you would a blessing.

[1340] Yeah.

[1341] We're fucking super lucky.

[1342] Mazel tov.

[1343] Hey, Shabbat.

[1344] Shalom, baby, tomorrow.

[1345] Tomorrow.

[1346] Oh, yeah.

[1347] Thank you guys for listening.

[1348] You're the fucking best.

[1349] You're a blessing.

[1350] You're a blessing.

[1351] We appreciate you.

[1352] Thanks for letting us say really ungrateful things so we can get to the gratitude part afterwards.

[1353] Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[1354] Your understanding means a lot to us.

[1355] Thanks, Stephen R. Morris, for audio engineering all our bullshit.

[1356] Stephen has to sit through so much.

[1357] Bullshit.

[1358] I mean, true.

[1359] And all he gets to do is read a Kit Kat menu at the end of the day.

[1360] Poor thing.

[1361] Stephen, get us that Kit Kat information.

[1362] Yeah.

[1363] Quick like.

[1364] Hey, what's going on on the Purrcast this week?

[1365] We have Alison Tolman, who is the star of season one of Fargo.

[1366] Yes.

[1367] And Emergence.

[1368] And Emergence.

[1369] Yes.

[1370] And her cat, Bud, had all of his teeth removed, and he's a big sweetheart.

[1371] And you can just hear him on the podcast and be like, hey.

[1372] Like breathing.

[1373] And it's really cute.

[1374] And she's hilarious.

[1375] Allison Tolman, I think, is one of the most compelling actors in the game right now.

[1376] They gave her her own procedural.

[1377] That's how amazing she was.

[1378] If you didn't see, was it season one or season two of Fargo?

[1379] I think it was season one with Billy Bob Thornton, right?

[1380] Yeah.

[1381] I think that was season one.

[1382] No, it was with, um, Billy Bob Thornt was in the movie.

[1383] It was with, what's his cute?

[1384] No, no, no, Billy Bob face.

[1385] You're right.

[1386] Martin, but Martin Freeman, but, um, Billy Bob Thornton was also.

[1387] He was the villain.

[1388] No, no, Ethan, Ethan, Ethan, oh, that was season three when he was his own twin.

[1389] Or, was it three or two.

[1390] You're talking about you and McGregor.

[1391] He was a twin.

[1392] He played his own brother.

[1393] That was not her season.

[1394] So it is season one.

[1395] Sorry, obviously Stephen knows this because he had a conversation with her.

[1396] Yes, it was season one.

[1397] We're confirming this.

[1398] Colin Hanks too was also.

[1399] Oh, and they fall in love and it's so good.

[1400] Three cheers for Allison Tolman.

[1401] And if you haven't watched Emergence, it's really good.

[1402] Cool.

[1403] Yeah.

[1404] All right, stay sexy.

[1405] And don't get murdered.

[1406] Goodbye.

[1407] Elvis, do you want a cookie?